The Never-Ending Ramblings...

A pain in my neck

I can’t even remember a day without pain. On top of my T.O.S pain, I woke up this morning with neck pain. The first five or so discs in the back of my neck and upper back hurt. This seems to make my T.O.S worse. I hate whining. I’m just so damned tired of it. Can I wake up tomorrow pain free? I’ll settle for level five.

You can bet your sweet ass I’ll still keep my hitting session with adam tomorrow. I’ve got a match Tuesday night and I need the practice. And besides, why give up tennis when I didn’t give up laundry chores, ya know?

I know.

I know the pain won’t go away. I know it may worsen. I know my spirit will thank me. I’ll be glad for the exercise, the distraction. Cuz while I’m on court, keeping my eye on the ball, my mind will not stray. Will not think about the pain. My body will barely feel the pain. When I walk off, I’ll collapse in my office chair and I may even call myself an idiot for even going out, but my heart and soul will smile.

And this is what I need.