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On A Lighter Note

Sometimes I get away from the norm, and my mind goes back to the events of the past. It doesn't happen that often (thank God), but it does crop up every now and then. Especially the memories surrounding my son Chris.

Keeping a check on my feelings from time to time, can prevent me from going into what I call "snowballing". That is when one thought leads to another, then another, and I find myself on this rollercoaster ride! Memories just keep pouring in. Usually this will only last a couple of days and then I can shrug it off.

The thing that helps me shrug it fastest is a phone call or a visit from one of my children.

Like today, my oldest son Mike called me again and we had a good long talk. We didn't talk about his departed brother, however, we talked about "Mike's" life and what is happening in his world. That really helps me to dwell on the "here and now" with my kids.

I'm sure that any parent who has lost a child must go through this at some time and another in their lives. I am just so thankful that I have four remaining wonderful kids who let me share in their lives and that of my grandchildren also!

I find that the older I get the more these phone calls and visits mean to me. Anymore I just can't seem to get enough of them! I'm going to be 64 in two months. Though I do not feel that old, nor do I look it( so everyone always tells me) my biological clock proves it! I am starting to slow down and I am noticing it more over the past year for the first time in my life.

I have begun to think more about my own exit oneday. I mean lets face it 64 is no longer middle age. Funny thing when I was middle aged I never felt like it. It never entered my mind that I was a day over 39 really! When I met Ron I was 57. I didn't feel like it nor did I look like it. Neither of us did for that matter. He was 59 at that time. He is now 65. When we both think about it we FELT like we were only 18!!!!

Amazing what falling in love can do to you!