Poetic Referendum(s) On Life

One Month To Go

Don't know if I'll be relieved or sad when my time is up. I am disappointed that I was not able to accomplish more. I had my goals in sight, but ultimately, I felt like it wasn't playing out the way it should.

I got sidetracked by the poetry, thinking I could publish a book of the stuff. But I knew that was not my best foot forward. I had reviewers getting inside my head with all the flattery. I could tell some where blowing smoke up my ass. I think I never fit in at this site for whatever reasons. I don't care to ponder why anymore.

I look back and see a lot of squandered opportunities. I wish I could have kept my original focus instead of letting this poetry thing become my calling card. I think I just need to get away from this site so I can think for myself -- not that I don't want to be a part of a great network of writers. I just can't focus anymore. Too many pieces to my life are falling apart, rather than coming together.

So, I need some time away. Maybe forever. There have been those who've provided me with great support. There have been others who've let me know that I'm an unwanted element. Either way, now I have to look within to find the one person who can give me everything I need. I don't need any other...just me.

I am very fortunate for the past 15+ months, for the lessons I've learned,
~ Glaedr