Amygdalia's Blog

Sink or Swim

It's that time of year . . . I'm struggling more than usual with SAD this year.  My mood has been really low, my patience is non-existent, my tolerance is pretty well bottomed out as well.  My hubby is worried about me because I have such an aversion to going out when it's cold, and particularly when it's cold and dark.  I always have, but he seems to think it's worse this year.  I can't focus on anything - my NaNo went down the toilet because I can't come up with one creative idea.  Noise is driving me batty - Jakie is in the next room eating his snack and making some little whiny noise, and I want to run screaming.  The one thing I've really changed over the past several years - and I'm wondering if THIS is why I'm having an increasingly more difficult time coping with SAD - is that I'm really trying very hard not to kvetch, complain, or show others how miserable I'm feeling.  Which, unfortunately, means that my family bears the brunt of it.  I know I need more outlets, more ways of releasing the tension and anxiety I'm feeling.  Writing - well, I can blog, but the creative part of my brain has shut down.  Exercise - I'm trying.  Last week was a bad week.  I can't do my bellydancing in front of anyone, since Dr B laughed at me.    I've been saying for a few years that I really want to find a place to swim - that's what I need.  I just wonder how I'd convince myself to go swimming, when I'm already having a hard time with the cold. 

And just because nothing can ever work smoothly, I got a call last night from the woman who's been picking Dr B up from school 2 days a week - she can't do it anymore, starting immediately. 

I went to see a dermatologist, last week, about the eczema I've suddenly developed on my face.  She gave me a scrip, and told me to use something different to wash my face with.  Well . . . it seems to be getting WORSE, rather than better. *sighs*  She also gave me an antibiotic, which I've been terrified to take. 

I'm so thankful for my WDC friends - I don't know what I would do without all of you to help brighten my days! 

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