Down the Rabbit Hole

Adaptation

I am slowly beginning to write again. I’ve received two invitations to write pieces for publications I have already been published in so that has been an extra motivator. It has been difficult, getting back to me post baby. Aside from a physical weight gain brought on mostly by opportunistic eating habits, I have been slow to ignite in other areas of my life. I have felt compromised at work and my libido has been uncharacteristically non-existent as well. I chalk it all up to the amazing, wondering and life-altering experience of having a child and the struggle with adapting to the new responsibilities of parenthood. Jaden is magnificent. She is a bright, beautiful and happy child. Her father is completely smitten with her and he surprises me daily with his confidence and his unrestrained affection with her. Our transformation from couple to parents has been good overall although the need for some balance is definitely in order. The moments we can find to be a couple even for a few hours, are crucial to stave off the stress and tension that a new baby can bring. I know I have to take better care of myself, get things under control more. With our working schedules, it is as difficult to orchestrate “me” time as it is to find “couple time” but I have to do a better job at both. It hasn’t helped that the last few weekends have been jammed. I’m looking forward to July, it seems to promise a slower pace with fewer obligations to others. Jaden will be six months old in just a matter of weeks and before very long, she will be far more mobile. I look toward that time with some trepidation but also relief. I could use a few hours a day her around, perhaps it will help booster my weight loss as well as my energy levels.