My Thoughts: when the mood strikes.

Wednesday, March 30, 2011, Noon CDT

Wednesday, March 30, 2011, Noon CDT

         Heartsick, I wish I could just throw-up and be done with it!  I keep praying, God help me accept this and move forward in peace!  ...just ain't happened as yet that I can tell. 

         Slept in until 11:01am!  That's a first in years.  I slept twelve hours straight.  It felt like it was early morning, but alas --- after checking every clock --- it wasn't.

         I am experiencing waves of emotion --- sadness, fear, alarm, discontent, mixed up...  God, help me process and move forward.  Help me overcome this shifting obstacle.

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         I started packing yesterday.  I'm hoping to get it completed today --- except, I won't be able to move anything yet.  Just get it all ready and then look at the remains and feel like an uprooted cherry tree after an earthquake, unable to bud and flower because of disturbance, detached from nourishment, foundation... roots beginning to dry out and die.