Wondering about my Wanderings

Just Saying

January 8, 2014

I am the first to say that we are not saved by works. My dad would say that God only helps those who help themselves. The truth lies somewhere in between or in combination with each other. I have been challenged many times to put hours into tasks that I spend minutes on. It is a perfect time to appeal to the first part of my equation. I can spend as much time as I want on any given task. After all I am not saved by works. This can get me in trouble because I may not focus as much on quality as quantity. The more important value is getting some form of feedback so that I know someone sees me.

One the other hand I can get over the top obsessed at trying to do enough to be considered okay in God's sight. I see myself as inferior to others, which forces me to work that much harder to be on a level playing field. I try to make up for my emotional moodiness, laziness and mental slowness by digging deep inside and doing what I can and not worrying about what I cannot do.

"Just saying" means that I speak for myself rather than for anyone else. I know that Jesus saves me and I can not save myself and at the same time I want to show my faith by my works. I am a person in the process of living out both truths. By the grace of God I will learn that love is more than just saying. It is recognizing in self and others how the "Word" becomes flesh and dwells in and among us. At that moment I will know what love is.