Wondering about my Wanderings

Running

Every day it seems I run more and more. After a time I feel near exhausted. It is part of my daily regimen of staying in shape and I am slimming down, so that there is definitely a motive to keep doing it. At the same time I wonder what it is that I am running from or running to. This evening I will hear from a search committee more about what my journey to be a pastor looks like. At some levels I can relate to Jonah. I cannot be sure if I am running from some task that God wants me to accomplish.

I am doing well enought in my security job and caregiving feels like it is as good as it can get. I have never before been in a position to make a choice that has not been motivated by some sense of desperation. I have been scared like someone was going to catch me and beat me up for not being good enough. Will I make the right decision? I pray that God will guide me and let me find what it means to find God in joy.