Wondering about my Wanderings

Sermon City

I guess if I am truly wanting to be a pastor, I need to act like one. I have a category in my portfolio that is called sermon fodder. At the present time it is relatively empty. My prayer is to get three potential sermons listed before the week is over. In years past I was always a month ahead of time in the creation of sermons to prepare myself for whatever adventures lie ahead.

My main intent will always be to not speak until spoken to. This is the big test for me. Will God still speak through me as God has done in times past? I have been out of professional ministry for over ten years. On some days this can seem like an eternity. My exile took place because divorce and a desire to see my children grow. There is no longer any excuse to keep me from resuming my call into ministry. I have been in this state before so that I know it is possible. I had been hospitalized for mental health issues and dove back into my studies as if I had been studying all along, doing better than I did before the illness happened.

I can not expect less. Some of my biblical heros were older before they did their best work. There are people like Abraham and Moses who showed the world that God sees beyond issues like age. I feel real old and tired. The greatest victory will be found in going forward and seeing what will happen. I have a sermon to preach in the coming weeks. I fear that I will fail. I need to remember that is in faithfulness I am victorious. God give me strength.