Wondering about my Wanderings

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I recall growing up and watching the rockets getting ready for blastoff. I have that same feeling as I continue to get ready emotionally and mentally for preaching on sunday. It getss to feeling too intense on some days. The one good sign is that I am sleeping. Some things I have done recently that are helpful:
1. offering myself the privilege of thinking what twenty minutes looks like.?
2. Being realistic. I prepare to deliver and then it is out of my hands. It is kind of like hitting tennis balls. They might like a different kind of stroke.
3. Is it worth it? Can I muster enough energy to do a good job?

Then there are all the other issues, insurance, housing, how Sharon fits in. The best attitude is to just let wait and see.