Wondering about my Wanderings

Waiting

Here I sit waiting for something to happen that will let me know that I am here for a reason. My voice has been on the lam for a while and it is very distressing. I think it could be sinuses or maybe thyroid related. I have not been doing well taking my thyroid medicine. On top of that I have received a call from a church in Beaver Falls. It is awful to think if you lose your voice you can not be considered for a position.
If it all came together I would be close to my ailing mother and my wife's family. What is God saying to me. I listen, I wait.


God:
I am there for you. Waiting teaches you that there is something worth preparing for.
Me:
There are times I feel like if I wait too long I will die without seeing the birth of new possibilites.
God: You already are that new possiblity. As long as you are who you are nothing matters.
Me:
What about mom and my Sweetie.
God:
They are loved, you know it by what you feel inside. They will know and you will know the time.
Me:
Time for what.
God:Time for waiting.