Angel Whispers

All By Myself

I keep intending to write a more positive entry about my spiritual beliefs and experiences, but events keep on preventing this.

I have been slowly recovering from a full blown cold after three weeks. Then along comes the throat bug from hell and knocks my son, his family and myself flat out. He has had some of the worst call outs from his job in the middle of the night as well as trying to cope with family. This has made communication difficult and low on the ground.

My husband's bachelor brother has never been any support and flew out to New Zealand the day after the funeral. My stepdaughter and family are proving what matters to them is more material than anything else and are not offering any practical help whatsoever. Friends vary in their input, but thankfully I have some good ones.

I feel lousy and fear I may have to resort to a doctor if no better after the weekend. For now it's just a case of getting through each day for whatever reason and hoping for a glimmer of hope in the darkness of reality. I have been through some rough times, but this is something else.

I will continue to take each day as it comes and hope to share better experiences before long. The long evenings alone really are unbearable at times.