Once Upon A Shadow, Deep Inside A Dream

Drifting - 10/04/2018

Drifting
         Drifting
                   Drifting

Moving
         Turning

I'm in love with you
         or maybe I'm not....

Maybe I'm just
         thinking of things
                   imagining things

Things that don't exist

Captivated by your glance
         by your eyes

Caught up in imagining
         your kiss
                   your embrace

I don't even know you

But, I'm drifting

I'm caught up in the wonder
         of falling

And maybe you'll catch me

But you probably won't

Because you don't even know me

Invisible
         I sit
                   I stare

I imagine

And you live your life
         without me
                   and nothing is missing

You don't feel the gap
         you don't feel the hole

But, I'm not there
         because you don't love me

And I'm just drifting

Imagining what it means
         to fall in love

Imagining what it means
         to be loved

Caught up in the fantasy
         Caught up in the dream
                   Caught up in the romance

That doesn't exist

Just drifting

Drifting
         Lost
                   Forever wandering away

But, I think I love you

I guess it doesn't matter
         I'll just continue
                   to live my life, too

Without you

Drifting
         not falling
                   not being caught

Just living
         carrying on

Facing every single day
         alone

And, it's okay

Maybe you are waiting
         for me

Maybe you are thinking
         of me

I don't know

I'm just drifting

Caught up in the wonder
         of the promise
                   of love

Is it too late
         It feels like it is

I feel like the vapid
         emptiness of space
                   will swallow me whole

Who am I

Does it even matter

Is there anything special at all?

Will you see that

Will you see me
         through the pain

Will you see me
         through the hurt
                   through the rejection

Because I've never known love

I've just drifted

And the days are closing
         and the night is coming
                   are you there

I think I could love you

Someday

I imagine being
         caught up
                   in you

I imagine seeing your face

I imagine your eyes
         meeting mine

I imagine you
         calling
                   my name

On that day
         will we know

Or will we turn away

Will you only see
         the ugliness
                   that is me

And miss the beautiful
         flower
                   closed within

I miss that flower

How could I expect
         you to see it

I'm just drifting
         wandering
                   lost

Alone

Sad

How are you
         Are you living
                   Are you happy

Are you in love
         with someone else

Are you still waiting

Does it even matter

All I know is I'm
         drifting

And someday
         I'll drift
                   into you

And we'll either
         fall
                   in love

Or we'll go our separate ways

But, until that day
         I'll continue
                   loving you

And drifting