Thoughts on life and society can be pointless, but that's what books are for. I've never enjoyed reading. It's always been difficult for me to read. Sometimes, I imagine little demons pulling at my eye lids. The Devil is in the details. I like people, who can act. They're fun to watch. I guess I wish I could be an actor, but I just don't have that charm and I stutter. My life is meaningless. I just lope from one place to another. I think that's my strength. Most people need a career and family. .. Family is a nice idea, but I've never had a nice family. Is this becoming annoying? ... Let's start with Vertago! He's cool and a stud. He also is popping up a lot in my movie watching. The mind can make association: like is the guy on the radio talking to me? Or why am I seeing so many eye balls in my movie watching? Jeeeze! I just saw CASE 39. A really scary movie with an eye ball scene that's very icky. This guy has a hornet come up out of his eye's lid.. tear duck. Any who, it's scary. Well, when I was Veratgo on Private Games.com my picture was of my left eye. It was trippy. Just a note to the CASE 39 writers: Lilith is not evil. I'm talking about Adam's first wife, expelled from Eden, because she "Would not be his beast of burden." Lilith is the first feminist in Bible Lore, she is immortal. So you can't drown her. Nope, only God can stop her. Okay, this Vertago guy is still effecting me. Strangers will look at me and cover their right eye, cars will shut one headlight off. That's dangerous! I had an elderly woman pinch my butt an call me "Vertago." in the mall. There was a Vertago concert. There is a Vertago song by U2. I started writing about Vertago in the 90's on an Australian web site Private Games.com. That's when I was working at Wal-Mart. Wal-Mart was awful. I had an over night manager slap me in the face. I just wish people would stop dropping pennies around me. I mentioned that Abraham Lincoln is looking to the right, while all the other presidents are facing to the left, because he was assassinated. Now, I get penny's dropped around me. I wish I had mentioned the dollar bill and the star of David over the eagel's head. It has twelve stars in it for the twelve Apostles. Feel free to throw dollars at me. Reflections: I wasn't completely honest about what I said about the penny. I was quoting the old Civil war lore Lincoln was facing right because he freed the slaves and turned his back on the brotherhood. That's what I wrote on Private Games.com. I'm not in favor of slavery. |
For all the folks I've met , nothing important in my life has been popular. Popularity is commercial. It is an advertisement driven media that encourages popularity. Of course , I had my moments of group approval , but so what? I think ... therefore who cares ? And more importantly why do I want to sell my conscious ? It is fun to mess with popular ideals and that is my pathology .. for you profilers. A lot of this mumbo jumbo monkey chest beating is instinctive ... But , what teenage kid would wear a kilt in Boston ? I did. My dad thought the kilt was cool , but could see a whole lot of ass kicking coming my way. I hate popularity. The kilt thing was a St. Patrick Day angst.. Saint Patrick converted Ireland to X-Mass and he was British. This all happened in the days of the ancient Roman Empire when every man wore a tunic or kilt. Mind you , my sisters liked to dress me up like a hooker from the age of 5 to 9.. I resisted as puberty kicked in to walk around the neighborhood like a $20 hooker. I was aware of the danger .. * WHAT IS POPULAR CAN GET YOU LYNCHED * What if the government made a law that all men had to wear kilts ? Would the pop culture encourage it ? Or would rebellious antisocial teens dress in white collar suites and ties ? It's all about how you want to fit in.. I just don't care. I guess I'm a burn out. Tootles! |