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Inner Workings of the Machine

by Storm Machine

Rated: 18+ · Book · Other · #1946560

When one blog is filled, another one must open.

Coming soon: more work from someone creative, ambitious, and determined - often called a variant of insane/crazy.

Notes: Genderfluid. Preferred pronouns (they/them)

[& denotes married couples]
Immediate Family: soon-to-be-ex-Dilbert, Tempest, Dogbert

My Extended Family: (s)Dad, cousins (K, D, G, J, F, N) I guess it's good to be on speaking terms with someone. Voluntarily. AuntS
Dilbert's Extended Family: SIL (+5 kids)& BIL, FIL's gf (only for holidays, mostly)
Important People I Don't See Enough: Owl + Partner, Paradise ICON crew (which owl is a part of)
People I've Known a Long Time/Long Distance: Doc & [husband], Sheer & DocSheer, Mrs. Light & [husband], Trillium & Diego (not married but close enough), Steph
Local People: MotherDroid, Owl&Partner ... There are about to be new people on this list, because, well, I'm evolving. And it hurts.

DnD: used letters, S (DM), D(doctor), Y(because I like him!), K(old RPGer friend who also attends church), P(church guy who does game night and is local and our families are also friends), A (went to church but moved back to Chicago, moved back locally then i moved)
Tempest's friends: I don't know very many of her local friends. She's got an internet buddy who also talks to CousinK's younger daughter. the younger daughter is DRAMA.
Dogbert's friends: Has a new group of friends based on a Pokemon thing and they have a DnD club at school and outside of school. Lucky kid!

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Brandiwyn🎶

Jan 26, 2024 at 10:14am
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It occurs to me that while at first glance, his reactions seem supportive, some of it may be financially motivated on his end. Shared parenting and you getting an engineering job would both impact the state's child support calculations.

Storm Machine

Jan 24, 2024 at 2:11pm
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He had actually mentioned that specifically.

Brandiwyn🎶

Jan 24, 2024 at 11:06am
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Did you ask the attorney about the inheritance? Assets are assets.

Also: *hugs*.

Storm Machine

Jan 21, 2024 at 12:16pm
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It's part of a business - we could split the yearly maintenance fees and each get a week vacation every year. I'm thinking about it, like so many other things.

He said today he doesn't want to tell the kids until after my daughter's finals week. She already knows, but OK.

Kåre Enga in Montana

Jan 21, 2024 at 1:27am
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Sometimes when the decision is finally made the 'fighting' ends. You both know that the path forward isn't trod by looking behind. Therapy will help with that.

Can the vacation property be lived in year-round? (Me, be nosy... no response expected. My cousins' summer-shanty would have had to be winterized.)

Kåre Enga in Montana

Jan 17, 2024 at 2:45am
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Priorities... The 'house' isn't #1 imho. Leaving should be #1. Finding a place that's suitable is fine; be prepared to make sacrifices. A 2 bedroom may work. Keep the price within the means of what the new job offers.

Lawyer... kudos for doing that. Let the lawyer deal with any legal aspects.

Counseling! Again, kudos, it may or may not be fixable but that will become clearer over time.

The noodles... you may be over-reacting. But that's what counseling is for. The underlying issues need to be found and dealt with.

I hope this works for you. Relationships are precious, even when they need to be redefined, even when they need to end.

And remember... unsolicited advice sometimes stinks. That's why we have garbage bins.

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Storm Machine

Dec 24, 2023 at 5:44pm
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Time by volume instead of length: A full day versus a long day.

We all have those encumbrances of relationships we drag with us. Or, maybe not all of us. But I'm tired of it.

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Kåre Enga in Montana

Dec 22, 2023 at 9:52pm
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Time by volume... like filling up a balloon or a room or... I dunno. My morning routine was about 1 meter squared... cut in half. How many squares can I stack in a day? What's the size of my room/body/life I inhabit?

I'm filling up my time dog paddling through this experience in Thailand. I figure that swimming is better than drowning. Been there before.

My relationship... is rocky at the moment. Nice 1 minute snuggle this morning; but frankly, I want more. Regardless of his issues... I could use a therapist to help me deal with mine.

My back is doing somewhat better with daily exercise (or exorcise as I call it). I don't take good care of myself when I'm alone. I shouldn't be alone.

My chiropractor friend told me a long time ago (over 20 years) that one of my issues was my mother. She used Bio-Energetic Synchronization Technique (B.E.S.T.) if I remember right. When my mother died last year at age 99 I felt a weight lifting. I was 'free'. Mind you, she'd become a sweet old lady; but, my inner child still remembered the Before Times. I find it sad in retrospect.

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Kåre Enga in Montana

Nov 21, 2023 at 11:13am
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I think I have to thank May, Michigan and Keith. T'was 1999 and I became a poet. My Muse broke out of its chains. Come to think of it... it was a crossroads.

I don't market. Could I? Should I... *shudder*. I'm fortunate to get out of bed everyday. There were times in the past when that wasn't guaranteed.

80k is impressive. I have focused on blogs this November but even that's just 14k.

I think you're right about creating and sharing. Focusing on the process will get results... in time.

Kåre Enga in Montana

Oct 29, 2023 at 12:23pm
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Tech... can't live without it these days. Drives me nutters at times.

Marketing? I'm fortunate to just stay semi-happy-awake-functioning-whatever.

Very stressful week.

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July 17, 2017 at 9:50am

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conversations

July is still a struggle.

So... at church I had a discussion with Daisy: And part of it was that my mother thinks i need to have a chat with her wife (Rascal) about her excessive weight - but that was more of an aside. I don't know how to tell my mother that I don't think her weight is an issue. And that no matter what, it isn't my place to go there unless Rascal says something about wanting my specific help. Because if I step in there - I'm not her friend.

Daisy doesn't think I should even mention that to Rascal, because that's apparently the thermonuclear war button on Rascal's back. And I mentioned that there's a warning sign for her wife: her bumper stick reads Change how you see, not how you look.

And then there's the part about becoming a krav instructor, and being the first girl on that side. She always mentions that's why she took her daughter to Kuk Sool Won (remember when I tried that?). Because there are "many" female black belts and they are respected within the school. BUT- one of the female black belt teachers there was such a bitch that I couldn't stomach voluntarily going and finding out she was teaching again. Which is why I sent the master of that place an email about why I wasn't joining. It wasn't just her- I can realize it was the change in the entire class around her. There were NO women in her class- the females that were there before had all gone, one I had spoken with before the class started and she pled illness.

Damn. time to go to yoga if I'm gonna go. Still might be late. Will update later.

I didn't make it to yoga. but I did make it to Michaels to exchange a frame and buy new ones for the pictures Mom made of the kids and I went to Kohl's to spend a reward cash. Got a sports bra (because I'm just not as happy with all of them) and a shirt that says "My favorite bars are chocolate." Fitting.

but on the krav thing- Daisy and I have a mutual friend that loved when her son took taekwondo from the owner of this place. And my teacher was teaching the boy, too. She understood I was in with good people. *breathes*

I think I get my hackles up when she says that because she didn't try the class and she didn't see how those guys reacted to black belt bitch. She might understand the art but she doesn't have any idea how to confer that to others - or to understand that you don't need to micromanage them as they work underneath her.

I'd rather be that woman at the krav place, that people see being respected by the teachers and the other students. Not that I won't have to work for that on some of these students who think they're farther because of a belt level. There are different reasons for choosing me than just any of this other level of belt.

(Those reasons might also be because I'm a woman, and not just that I've taught a crapload of other classes. 13 years is a lot of classes. Plus I'm consistent and I'm persistent. Another plus: I get along with the current staff.)

I think i went through the iteration I needed for now. but my new tai chi class is going again tomorrow, and I might be taking on a silver sneaker class for my boss in the fall - because summer is a tough time for me with kids and all. Sometimes I don't feel ready to teach tai chi. This class is an exception, but it also proves the rule because I have to make it up as i go along. THat's tough.

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