blog of a person who seems to be invisible... |
ok.. so I'm taking a next step in my life. I'm improving on myself. I'm going down this path i am on, thanks to God. I now attend a church regularly, and I like its small confines in a church building i attended nearly 40 years ago. To me it is surreal. Do i know whats ahead, or even where I am going? no, not at all. to be honest it scares me, but I need to step out of my fear and take charge of my life, and live it the way I and God want me to be. where ever this path goes, I'm sticking it out to the end. I feel it is a testament to who I am. I am learning more and more everyday about myself. and improving, also trying to make amends for past mistakes. But one can only make amends for mistakes where there was mistakes to begin with, if people don't want to listen then that is their fault, and their loss. I wont go where im not wanted and I know I am a good man, if you don't.. well that's too bad so sad for you... |
Today. what can I say about today? to me, it is when I found out that those that I believed in, and called friends all betrayed me, turned their backs on me, and in any way possible walked away from me. So at least I know now where I stand with them. Although granted, some of my actions say that it is very deserved of me to get this. I have lost everything and those that say they are there for me, are only there when it suits them. I call them Fair-weather friends and they are useless to me. One day I will have things straightened out, but I can tell you now that those who don't care, don't mean anything to me. |