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blog of a person who seems to be invisible...
ok.. so I'm taking a next step in my life. I'm improving on myself. I'm going down this path i am on, thanks to God. I now attend a church regularly, and I like its small confines in a church building i attended nearly 40 years ago. To me it is surreal.

Do i know whats ahead, or even where I am going? no, not at all. to be honest it scares me, but I need to step out of my fear and take charge of my life, and live it the way I and God want me to be. where ever this path goes, I'm sticking it out to the end. I feel it is a testament to who I am.
I am learning more and more everyday about myself. and improving, also trying to make amends for past mistakes.
But one can only make amends for mistakes where there was mistakes to begin with, if people don't want to listen then that is their fault, and their loss. I wont go where im not wanted and I know I am a good man, if you don't.. well that's too bad so sad for you...
September 25, 2019 at 5:12pm
September 25, 2019 at 5:12pm
#966781
well its me again. Lately I've had a real streak of bad luck in my life, that was so soul crushing i had no idea and no one to turn to to talk about it. but the darkness has gone.

I know my self worth and will NEVER chase someone again. I did chase this one woman, here in Florida, in real life. And we had a good start, but she must have found the grass on the other side of the fence greener, as she jumped ship from me saying that she needed time to work on her self and her stress level. that wa fine. I could deal with that. We were just friends. then one day I got a text saying that her and her ex are talking. the conversations after that were ok and it didn't seem like things with the ex were going anywhere.

That was then, this is now, of course they are going some where. Yet in no place did I ever receive any offer to fix or even talk about this at all... It was dicated to me.. how nice. I have recently decided that my self worth is more important than any woman, so I am moving on.... I guess its my lot in life to find women who are so superficial and out of touch that when they have a good man, and a real gentleman in their grasp they run.... that's fine.... well the barber says 'Next'.

Duces felicia.


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