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Rated: ASR · Campfire Creative · Poetry · Other · #663283
Trying to make two ideas one
[Introduction]
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Thoughts tugged on my shoulders today
Matters massive as matter likes to weigh
Long monologues of things I want to say
In short summary: can't we find a way?

When was it I aged, these years less deep than wide
Reality of this life rolls out with the evening tide
I could have achieved more things had I but applied
The world was mine for the taking, had I only tried

Why am I wallowing in loneliness when
Some believe me the luckiest of men?
Could I not just forgive you and then
Wrap my arms around you once again?

Within my aching heart is there no reason left nor rhyme?
I have lost too much already to this thing that we call time.
And while hiding passions that we shared might be a crime,
I can only find myself by leaving, mountains more to climb.

I take time to evaluate like I thought was smart
To ponder "us" during this time when we're apart
But my conclusion stinging like a well-aimed dart
Is the fear that I've lost my place in your heart.

Lost in emotions, not clear in thought,
Wondering why, consumed with why not?
Happiness and laughter are what I sought,
Now only faced with the words we fought?

By the way you roll your eyes and walk
I feel my name snitch-written in chalk
Your nitpicking makes my efforts balk
So how can we find a way to talk?

Why should we talk, when you don't care?
Our bonds weaken as you heartlessly stare
I get so enraged, this anger, I cannot bear,
Maybe this love is truly starting to wear.

I harbor a grudge inside me real deep
Under the sludge of my baggage heap
It's a burden I no longer wish to keep
For it holds us apart to separately weep

Why is it that trusting me is so hard
I have given you all that lies in my heart
Yet I still stand just outside your guard
Is it easier for you if we once again part

It seems like reconciling could be simple
If we try a little harder not to trample
The boundaries of our relationship temple
Which once was a glorious shining example

I am afraid we will never find our away
We've drift much farther then ever before
"I am sorry" now just words we seem to say
And once again our love will become a chore

Today as my feelings toward you soften
I'll retie the ties we chose to sever
But if I lose trust in us too often
Then I'll certainly lose you forever

Saddened by a fight, now days old,
Neither wishing our stand to yield.
With only our words of anger to hold
I wonder, "has our fate been sealed?"

There are a couple flaws declared
That I have had to accept about you
But they're meaningless when compared
To how my life sucks without you

If I could only tell you "I love you"
Would this fight again disappear?
Could you say you love me too,
and once again want me near?

If only you'd send a signal or transmission
Like half-smiles or flipping me some birds
So I'd know that my planned loving admission
Would be heard, and would be welcome words

As the hours on the clock begin to unwind
My aching heart has no more tears to cry
I sit here in silence with you on my mind
And fear my well of strength has run dry.

Even now with my method over-meticulous
I evaluate our situation from every angle
Summoning solutions rare and ridiculous
Instead of just letting my emotions dangle

You make me love and hate in the same conversation,
You analyze everything, my love isn't a math problem.
I want to be close to you, to feel you holding me tight.
To listen to your voice whisper "I love you, its all right."

My heart bends toward you in hopeful vexation,
For in the final analysis I know that I need you.
So I will my feet to follow the path of my stare,
Because not to hold you is more than I can bear.


Forgive the unforgivable words I said in haste
that have kept us apart for way too long.
Time is too important for you and I to waste,
and I think together we can not go wrong.

I just have to act and accept the knowledge
That your reaction is not one I can choose.
So I'll flirt with you like we did in college,
Cuz at this point I have nothing left to lose.

I heard the sigh in your vioce tonight,
and know I cant take another lonely day.
I need your loving touch to make it right
Leaving me to wonder "Can we find a way?"

This is my feeling and I can't ignore it,
And a phone call isn't the way; I'll place
Everything on the line when I go for it,
And tell you that I love you face-to-face.

How much of our relationship is reality,
The feelings we share as we try to care?
How much of it is just apart of a fantasy,
Our bodies just wanting some one there?

Once I tried to rent a passion
But I nearly vomited and had no fun.
She left me frustrated and ashen,
Knowing certainly, you are my One.

I cannot live up to your past memories,
Nor am I willing to even think of trying.
Our candle just may blow out in the breeze,
This fight has left my tired heart crying.

I shudder to think of all I used to desire,
As my past goals and memories just bore me.
Our candle has gone out for want of fire,
And I wouldn't mind my future a bit stormy.

Take my hand love, meet me halfway,
Pull me close, let our pain go free.
I now know I cant go on another day,
So I beg of you, come back home to me.

So I'll slide back into our sweet norm
And hold you tightly while we both pout.
I'll pray my kiss is welcome and warm
Enough that you won't kick me out.

With every sweet touch of your lips on mine,
I am reassured our love will with stand time.
My head upon your chest everything again fine,
Our love a beautiful poem weaving with rhyme.

Your whispered words caress my ears
With every I Love You you say,
And despite all our worries & fears
I think we've finally found a way.
Thank you John.

The End!

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