Mother Dearest

A/N: Bitterness never does quite loosen it’s hold…

Rated for language.

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MOTHER DEAREST
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You laughed when I showed you my pain
When I let the tears flow
You mocked
Good job mom, I’m hardened
Is that what you wanted?

Now crying is a weakness
And the question mark in life is love
Is that what you wanted?
Because I think you screwed up

And when you show me tears now
Do you expect sympathy?
After what you always did to me
That’s ironically funny

In fact I laugh at your tears
And wish for your pain
Is this what you wanted?
Your daughter fucking insane?

I still don’t know how you did that
Laughed when I tried to show
That part of me was hurting
The part of me that once cried

Well don’t worry, that part’s dead now
And I can hardly cry
And when I would have I think of you
And just why I shouldn’t cry

Because to show that emotion
Is to let your defenses down
And just get hurt even worse
Not as most think- a way to get all the bad feelings out

So don’t worry, Mother Dearest
I’m dead to emotions now
Your words
Like arrows
Pierced my heart
Until I became resistant
The only way I feel now
Is giving in to rage

So congratulations, mother Dearest
Throw yourself a goddamned parade
Your daughter fucking hates you now
The daughter that you made

She’s not so little anymore
The small one that you mocked
The little one that cried at hurts
The ones that wounded her heart

No, the little girl grew up
The first time she wrote in her diary
‘My mommy laughed at my tears today,
I guess I was wrong about her loving me.’


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A/N: A bit dis-jointed in the middle, tried changeing the words around a bit, but thi was really the only way. Review please.

(Please take a look at my other poems if you liked this one and have extra time. Thank you.)

-Angel