Wasting my Time

I write on the feelings that circle my head
Like buzzards awaiting an easy meal
So I write, but you ignored what I said
(When I see you) This burning is how I feel

I don't want to lose this, so I'll lose control instead
It's crowded; I can't breathe, but I'm so lonesome
I'm trying - but dying - in this bed
I don't miss being young like I miss being dense

if beauty had a face, it would laugh in mine
And I'm sick of waiting, but I don't know what else to do
Lazy and useless, "You know me." Good things take time
I burn the life I once knew along with my letters to you

Tongue back in cheek, tell me it will be alright
I've got something I can never have in sight
Hold me close near your side; I won't ever bite
I just want to sleep at night

I want to lose the memories that repeat over again
I want to lose the memories I can't escape but then
I'd have to say goodbye and I've tried
For so long to keep that from coming
Goodbye is the hardest part, right after the lies
That you told me and now I'm numbing