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(Note from the author: This is the first draft of the poem. Please tell me what you think. Also, if you have any ideas for a title I'd appreciate the input. Thank you!)


I can see the train wreck that is about to happen
But I can’t look away and I can’t warn you
You’re too wrapped up in the game he’s playing,
You’re drowning and I really want to save you
Because I’m just barely keeping my head above water
And maybe if I can save you I can save myself.

Your boy, he loves you for everything you are
And everything you aren’t.
Some people would die for that love, kill for it.
And this other one ….He lies to you.

How do I know? Because he tells me the same ones.
I’ve played this game, I’m damn near a master at it.
You always hold part of yourself back, part of yourself away,
The most important part that can be crushed by this game.
And a liar always recognizes another liar.

I can see this game between your boy and him, me and him
I know what it’ll do to you and me.
Inside I’m screaming at you, “Can’t you see? How can you not?
It’s a game, darling! And I’m so afraid you are losing.”
What happened to make me so cynical and jaded as to see this
From a bird’s eye view and the strands of the game we play.
What didn’t happen to you to make you like me?

I’ve been burned by this game, but now I play it better and
You … You haven’t even watched others play it!
How can you hope to win?
And I’d tell you darling, I really would,
But you wouldn’t see it as me watching out for you,
You’d see it as a betrayal and you’d hate me.

You see, don’t you? The same things he says to you he says to me,
But I don’t believe them, they’re illusions, words made of spun sugar.
He whispers in your ear that he’s never slept next to a woman before,
But it’s a lie! I know, because he’s slept next to me.

I’ve been through this all before, I lost my two best friends.
We were the three musketeers, inseparable and perfect.
Until something happened, something slipped, we fucked up
And can’t you see it’ll always be like that?
He’ll say something in front of your boyfriend,
He’ll say something about me in front of you.

Don’t you see, darling? It’ll all come apart and it’ll destroy everything.
I’d spare you if I could, I really would
But you’re too far adrift and I can’t save you.

Don’t you know …. He doesn’t care about either one of us.
I’m getting out while I can, before I start losing ground
Because this thing … This thing between us is toxic
And in this case it is best to run and hide

You’re boy, he loves you! Some people would kill for that
Because at the end of the day when you go to sleep in an empty bed
You realize just how lonely that really is.