guidance?

No matter what has gone on in this life time i can only just try and learn from my past and move on and someday be happy. but what if all i know is how to fail? how am i suppose to know what the right way is if i have no help getting there? the problems in the world will not restrict me to being just a regular man. I will be whoever i want to be and do anything i want that will keep my head up and legs strong so that i can see where i need to go and have to power to move past all the negativatey and hate.
All i know in this world is how to get by and to take what you want even if it means hurting people in the process. Anger is the only thing i know when it comes down to it. Anger keeps me from being hurt to badly but is it? or am i just hurting myself? How am i suppose to know im just some dumb kid running around like a chicken with his head cut off. The pain and suffering, is it really all worth it?
My mind is telling me that it wont matter in the end anyways because it is gunna end up going the same direction that its headed in. But what am i suppose to do to stop its course? So many things i dont know how to fix or even know about. I guess guidance is the thing that can really make or break these feelings. Guidance is maybe what i truly need but how am i suppose to get this guidance if i cant even talk to you about this? How am i suppose to make this better if i dont even know where to start and where to stop and not go to far? I could use some guidance.