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For all those girls that were in bad relationships, I want you to know you are NOT alone.
Hey girl, don't be scared. We've all been there before.
The emotions running through you may seem new to you but not to the rest of us.
Did he tell you he loved you? How about caress your neck as you kissed for the first time?
The twinkle in his eye seemed constantly shine when he looked into your eyes and told you he was seeing the true you,
instead of the image you were putting on for everybody else.
He told you that you had no flaws and that every inch of you was perfect.

Everything was going great when he held you, all your fears seemed so distant, but they never completely vanished.
No darling, I know they always returned, until the moment he came back and laid down next to you.
Even as you lay there in silence, part of you wondered where he was earlier that night when he said he was going "out".
Let me guess you closed your eyes as he pulled you closer, and you heard his soft voice telling you sweet things in your ear?
Compliments he gave you, always on your mind. And I'm sure you put your head on his chest to hear the quiet beating of his heart,
And I know it raced the more time you spent kissing his lips that seemed so soft but now the only thing you can picture when you think about his lips are the lies that seem to take over his saliva.

He used to be truthful right? He used to see nothing but you?
Now he's changed. Different, in so many ways you can't even imagine where to start.
Let me ask you this darling, when you look back, what do you see?
Does the pain he's caused you mean anything to you, or do you still wonder if it could have worked?
The pet names you made for each other are still floating through your head too I'm guessing.
And maybe even a song or two he dedicated to you as your songs seem to be on replay constantly, causing you emotional turmoil.

Now let us talk about the long hours you spent on the phone, talking about the most stupid and pointless stuff.
Why did you waste your time, girl? What did you think it was going to turn into?
Marriage? Kids? A white picket fence? It's okay, it's every little girls dream to find her Prince Charming.
Did you find him yet? You used to think he was, right? Well how about now?
What do you see when you look at his picture? Or did you burn all memories of him like the rest of us did?
And when you see him on the street with his newest fling, do you feel the need to warn her?
To tell her the hell she's going to encounter when he throws her to the curb like he did with all the others?

Do you really think he meant anything to you? It's hard not to be fooled by those loving eyes, right?
What about when those same eyes look at you with disgust and fury? What then, darling?
Then he broke up with you and left you all alone, with tears stinging your eyes.
Don't deny it. We both know you spent long, countless nights curled into the fetal position
as the headlights of cars flashed across your window until you fell asleep. Assuming you could sleep at all, that is.

I know it was hard to fall asleep because as soon as your head hit the pillow you could hear his voice telling you he wished you were laying there next to him because he couldn't fall asleep if you weren't there. We both know that wasn't an issue.
And your family talks about him, constantly reminding you of all the bad things he did to hurt you,
but when you try to move on they just tell you how they wish he was there to fix a broken chair, or a leaky faucet.
So you try to run from the memories before they overwhelm you. You go to the place you feel safest, with your friends.
You know, he shouldn't be an issue there. They all hate him now, right? It's how the story goes darling.
Remember when you first met him, and they were all so happy for you? Remember you can lean on them for comfort, and that you know they'll be there to hate him just as much as you do.

You all talk about him and laugh at his expense, but deep down you know that he doesn't deserve the amount of attention you give him. You give him too much credit, girl. Just stop. It's harder than it seems, that's for sure. People tell you you'll be okay, right? And that you can do better, that you will find somebody better. It's okay to cry too, we've all done it whether we want to admit it or not.
And that reminds you of when he used to have feelings right? Before he was a lying, cheating man whore.
Before you imagined him being impaled by an eighteen wheeler? Yes, that's normal too.

And just when you think you're over him, you find yourself crying over him and talking about him more than ever before.
It sucks, I know. And you've heard that you'll get over him all the time, but after a while, it will happen.
And the next guy you're with, you'll compare them. And every one after that for the rest of your life.
But don't forget to give them all a chance, unless you see who they really are.But really, what makes you think you will? If you didn't seem him off the bat, what makes the next one different?
He'll sense you're hurting too, but he won't care. He never did, did he? Didn't think so..

He'll become happier every time he sees you in pain. So keep a smile on your face, darling.
Because you never know when to expect him. Maybe he'll talk about the past, but don't let it bug you.
Keep your cool, and laugh when he talks about the things you did together.
When he nods to you while crossing the street, not back but don't crack. Don't even think about it.
Because you're not doing this for just you, you're doing it for all the girls he's hurt.
And we're here for you, counting on you.
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