One Way Out

There was only one way out....

There was a small crack on the top of the cave, enough light to give me an idea of my surrounding. The musk of the cave flooded my nose, the faint smell of mildew and sediment overtook my sensory system. Though I had no clue how I got here, and no previous memory of my life before this moment. I know English, and I understand my anatomy, so what ever has given me temporary memory loss isn't that strong. Ego death in similarity to drug overdoses does not compare to this feeling. I know who I am, I just can't recall why I am here. I feel my body, checking for lesions and other places blood could have escaped and I am perfectly fine. In this cave light my hands look grey and old, and my hair is in definite need of a wash. I can hear water behind me but I am too afraid to explore with no light. I appear to be wearing jeans and boots and a casual flannel which could come in handy if needed. This light at the top of the cave is coming through a crack in the rocks and it looks like sunlight. The cave is dark and my hopes could be too high for this to amount to anything, though I know I need to at least try and escape. The walls in the cave are covered with a beautiful shimmer of stars, so I can imagine this is a rock quarry on the outskirts of some town somewhere.
There is sand under my boots that has become damp over time, and this dampness depresses me. I wonder when the last time this sand saw daylight, or when I last saw daylight too. the rocks have formed a ramp up to the crack at the top and I must brave scaling this wall of crumbling cave before me. if I don't, then what? I stay and mold away in this cave? Someone put me in here but why, or even how? the first step was the hardest, the shock of consciousness was most difficult to overcome. The sound of my footsteps in this cave and my breathing was the only noise to be heard, I felt completely alone in this isolated world. The bigger question was what is waiting before me, what could be out there? More questions possibly or answers to find? the rocks are sharp, but not sharp enough to cut my skin due to the fact that these rocks had fallen here most of the edges have tumbled off. My hands are supple and soft, so whoever my kidnapper was took good care of me and didn't want to hurt me, and I obviously did not put up a fight.
Climbing the rocks was a task in and of itself, they were damp and slippery because of the water in the cave. The rocks were heavy and made an incredibly loud crash behind me as I scaled this wall. The rocks were unsteady and caused me to focus on my balance. In these moments I was grateful for my boots, and my toes that remained in tact. As I finally make it to the top of this cave wall my hand plays in the light breaking through the crack. This heavenly glow falls on me and I can see the details in my hand for the first time. I pull and the light collapses before me. I gasp and push the top rock faster than my reflexes could handle and the rock falls. The light broke through the cave like a shower of rain and I could see the glistening lake behind me. Im high on this wall and excited before I realized something that made my heart stop. I never heard the rock that I pushed out land. The feeling of a sinking stomach is Childs play compared to what I felt in these moments. My ears went hot and my adrenaline pumped through my veins. I pushed the next rock and the next till I could see what was before me. The hole simply wasn't big enough, so I pushed more and more rocks till my eyesight adjusted to the brilliant light that was piercing my vision.
what lay before me was a cliff, and at the bottom of the cliff there was a large body of water. Naturally I would call this body of water the ocean though I am not that naive. the Great Lakes in the United States have massive bodies of water but where would there be a cliff large enough to hold a small lake and hide a human. The bigger more obvious question is should I jump. would I die if I jump? is there rocks at the bottom that would kill me on impact if I survived the fall? A memory falls into my vision, I guess this would be more like a flashback. I was stunned when these visions filled my mind. the memory of those pills I took, the moment I cut for the first time, the last time I tried to take my life in a time before time. I took living for granted and it overwhelmed me. I stood there in complete shock but felt no remorse or feeling that I had betrayed myself, my family, my friends, or anyone I was close to. I stood there in silence, I took a deep breath and did not care what the repercussions were. I levelled my feet and felt the soft air hit my skin, I could feel every hair on my head adjust in the subtle wind, my senses were awake, and my eyes were dilated. I jumped.