This Pain Inside

This Pain Inside

I have this pain
this pain inside
it hurts to breathe
it hurts to cry

I dont want to feel
I dont want to see
I wont ever admit
what you've done to me

Too much pride as a man
I cannot break down
It just keeps building up
and your not around

I always follow you
I always show I care
but when I have to run
I never see you there

You say you love me
you cry sometimes
but are your tears real
or are they your alibi

This pain is unreal
and I can't abide
this is killing me
or is it suicide

I wanna bleed it out
I wanna open veins
I wanna kiss this knife
I wanna leave this place

It hurts so bad
and now I cannot feel
I am dead inside
and nothing is real

To leave this pain
into ecstasy
into the bright light
its a fantasy

I won't ever escape
and I can't run away
I am your prisoner
in every word you say

Maybe I'll end this hurt
Maybe I'll get away
Maybe I'll break this chain
Maybe I'll spill these veins

To this pain inside