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One man's journey to find the way home |
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I am an American Baptist ordained minister. I began my life journey in Massachusetts, where I was called to help people understand what it meant to know a loving God. The call came during a time when I was wrestling with how to help my brother Kurt, who was diagnosed with Schizophrenia during my high school years. I was a new Christian by my senior year following trying to understand what it meant for me to care about a person like my brother who others tended to stay away from. After twenty three years in Massachusetts, God sent me to the land of Kansas City where I spent about 35 years of my life. I was a pastor, a resident chaplain, a supervisor in training and most recently a caregiver and security. Everything I have done vocationally has been with God in mind. That does not mean that I am totally comfortable with all the movings of the Spirit. I am now in Erie where I do not know very many people. I came here because of my wife. She is from Erie and coming here was the right thing to do. It just plain made sense. My kids had grown up. I did not like Kansas city in terms of climate and was looking forward to a change. I had become very frustrated vocationally and longed to come to Erie to get a second opinion, because I honestly believed that was what God had wanted for me. I left behind kids and grandkids who I loved!!!! I had two jobs that I enjoyed. They were both very appreciative of my skills and I was making more money with the two jobs than I ever had. I heard more than once. ARE YOU CRAZY? Well I can only say that I am in love with God's leading. I am starting all over again. It has not been easy. Maybe some of you can offer me some words of support. I am lonely despite the fact my wife is with me. She battles depression and has two siblings that are having similar battles. When it is all said I am in a depressed community with a depressed wife and her family. So I begin the conversation.... WELCOME!! |
| Never give up. Thats what mom always said. That is my hope. If only to know that I know of a God that never gave up on me even when I was finding so many ways to give up on my self. Today was my walk day. And I have already done ten miles before 7am. My goal is to review 10 and write three. Then I can know whether recovery can ever be real for a person like me. Eventually I want to read ten chapters of the Bible a day. God give me strength to make recovery real. |
| Never give up. Thats what mom always said. That is my hope. If only to know that I know of a God that never gave up on me even when I was finding so many ways to give up on my self. Today was my walk day. And I have already done ten miles before 7am. My goal is to review 10 and write three. Then I can know whether recovery can ever be real for a person like me. Eventually I want to read ten chapters of the Bible a day. God give me strength to make recovery real. |
| I would have to say I can not trust anyone. Everyone wants money whether they admit it or not and care little about how much they hurt people to get what they want. Friendship is no longer an easy commodity. I suffer knowing that there are people who want to hurt and ruin me and will do anything to destroy my reputation and we'll being. So I live to work and little beyond that. God be with me. Give me courage to overcome my faults. Will it ever end. I hope this kick starts the writer in me, because I think nothing else does. |
| It's been difficult to write. I pray I can learn I have something to offer and learn. I need to open myself to relationships and love my wife. |
| The Celtics are just awful. How bad can it hurt! That is the name of the game, just playing really awful and one of those games if they lose by twenty it would be a moral victory. If they lost by fifty or a hundred it would not surprise me. All of a sudden I wish I never rooted for the Celtics. They just look broken and busted and like Humpty Dumpty destroyed unable to be repaired. Better luck next year. |
| Getting out of handwrite mode can be a pain. Just hit globe. |
| Depression is a state of mind, a geographic contour. It is not a place to be stuck in. I pray to survive. Part of the problem is rooting for teams that are not able to win when I want. I am also faced with working over and over and over. It makes seeing family a chore. When do I stop and get ready for retirement. Time will tell. |
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