The Hurt

The pain in my head
sears through my heart
It tells me to stay in the shadows
To stay away from everyone
It hurts to much to stay away
But it gradually hurts even more to stay.

I try to focus on the good times
Sometimes the bad times overpower the good ones
God help me, why do they hurt me so much?
Why do I end up hurting the good ones.
Without even trying, the good ones I scar.
It's all my fault, I don't deserve to be here.

Maybe it's best for me to leave
then maybe the drama surrounding me will leave
I might be leaving behind,
the friends, the family...
But do they really care?
Or is it just a front
it's too much work to find out,
I'll just leave.
Maybe the pain will subside for good.