My soul's calling

Please help me, I feel so trapped
My body holds my soul yet is so intact
My head holds my thoughts where they rot and they grow
Yet really it’s my spirits energy which needs to flow

I enjoy life, I love people around,
I love the sky the sea and the ground
But I need to bring my soul into life
So that life can be fulfilled and given a new insight

I need to feel love I need to be free
I need to express my real self and see
I believe in the universe, the sun and the moon
I see the beauty in the sunrise and dawn

I see the beauty in people around
Yet within myself the beauty I’ve found
Is lost and distorted, pushed aside
Like the lapping waves of the beaches tide

It comes and it goes, and gets washed away
I keep saying “not today”
Another time I will express my true calling
When I have the courage and no fear of falling

But that time never comes, through fear of change
Through fear of being estranged
Through a fear of finding my true being
Can be more scary than not seeing.

So now I have decided enough is enough
Expression is vital in this world which is so tough
Tomorrow I will be me
Tomorrow I will see.

But will tomorrow ever come?