Last day

Today’s the last day,
says every addict,
says every anybody sick of their own bad habits.
I swear,
today
is the very last day
I will be treating myself this way
Today’s the last day
before I’m new
I swear,
this is something I’m going to do

Dawn doesn’t break when the heavens rain
And the will to stop is tested before starting the day

Promises are just so easy to make
Promises are just so easy to break
And the person in the mirror is just so easy to hate

Isn’t everything easy anyway?
Isn’t that what makes it so hard to change?

Today’s the last day says every addict,
says every anybody sick of their own bad habits
I’m ready now
I know what I’ll face
I swear,
today is the very last day

Even seeing the hurt, looking at the waste
Is not enough to make today the last day

Knowing the triggers,
having a plan,
having a cheerleader,
having a hand
Doesn’t mean there’s strength to do what needs to be done
Doesn’t mean the battle’s anywhere close to won.

I just want today to be the last day
is what the weathered addicts say
And every anybody sick to death
of their own carousels and rollercoasters
say after today, can’t it be over?

But dawn doesn’t break when the heavens rain
And it’s never easy
And there’s always pain
Isn’t that what they call change?

I don’t know what day will be the last,
but damn if I’m gonna relive my past
That’s what the addicts and every anybody’s say
When they manage to stop getting in their own way.