Confusion

The chill of the dark night
Makes me wish I could make things right
To get far away from here
To get through this wall of pain and fear

I need to run ahead of the race
To fulfill this prophecy and ban this hate
To burn the memories of the past
The things that killed me so fast

Part of me says to pack my stuff and leave
While the other part says to stay and hide behind Daddy
When will my heart tell me where to go?
I don't think it'll ever know

Don't be like a young child
Let yourself be free, go out into the world
Begin your life all over again
Take a step forward and be the goddess and reign

Stand with your family
Be in the truth and reality
Stay in the same place you're in
Remain dependent on them

Listen to my heart screaming
"Get somewhere and fulfill what you're dreaming!
Don't be foolish
You can be the controller of this!"

Be strong and independent
Take your dream and protect it
Do something for yourself
And don't follow anything else

Don't let anyone hold you back
Get your bags and go pack
Earn the things you posess
Take your time and complete the process

You've got a family to support you
But that's something your friends will do too
They're opening their arms
And they'll make things more fun

From now on
You'll know what's right or wrong
Just pray for Heaven's guidence
And know it'll get you through this...