Loosing Myself In A High

I can't think for myself.
My high let me not.
I can't know myself.
My mind says stop.

Loosing myself in a high.
And I have not wonder why.
One pill can make my body fill so.
When my mind says no.

I snort my tears away.
Smoke my idears away.
I live my life for someone else.
My life has never been my own.

I have a house full of people
and yet I still fill alone.
Why can't I see the picture before me.
I don't have the heart to live free.

Loosing myself in a high.