My first ever poetry

Everyone I’ve loved,
Everyone I’ve lost;
Everyone I’ve protected,
No matter what the cost.

Everyone betrays me,
Everyone will just pretend,
Everyone will leave me,
Alone I'll face the end;

Love is just a feeling,
I'm in this on my own,
Loss is my only knowing;
I'm meant to be alone;

Protection is what I give,
Never to be returned,
The cost is the pain I feel,
Knowing your friendship was never earned,

I know now,
It was all a lie,
The reason I live,
The reason I die,

But I can’t hate you,
No, not yet,
For all this pain,
I’m in your debt.

~Sarah




Everything I believed in,
Everything I use to trust,
It was all worthless,
It was all just lust,

It was all so perfect,
All in the beginning,
I knew naught pain,
But I wasn’t winning,

My heart hath failed me,
It will just lie,
’It will be better,’
But I always cry,

My life has been useless,
All pursuing a dream,
The cost is this pain I’ve dealt with,
Sorrow is a familiar theme,

Life is just a travesty,
Love is just a myth,
Sorrow is the only emotion,
Death is our pith,

But yet I hold on,
Perhaps love in time will flourish,
Till then I stand here,
Unless the earth parish.





Solitude is golden,
Sorrow is my art,
But here I stand stricken,
A tattered and worn heart,

Lonely feelings crest the surface,
Of my own worst enemy,
The sound of people screaming,
Fills the air around me,

In this dark abyss,
I fall and fall again,
Loss is my only knowing,
When did it all begin?

Everyone I’ve loved,
They’ve all been lost,
Pain is a frequent feelings,
That’s my only cost,

Hope is on the brim of breaking,
It’s all just a lost cause,
The beast as come to claim me,
I’m fighting in it’s jaws,

Failure I’ve accepted,
It’s just my dark fate,
I’ve come to terms with my problems,
I’ll see the pearly gate,

Your love was the world,
I’m sorry it didn’t work,
I’ll see you on the other side,
Where the lonely shadows lurk.






Everything was perfect,
I even had a plan,
He was my knight in shining armor,
But I was on the lam,

Then here you came,
A beacon of blazing light,
Perhaps that’s why you struck me,
With such intense might,

Confusion sweeps over me,
Will you never call again?
I fear that I may loose it,
When did this all begin?

I know now that it could be better,
But I haven’t the strength to try,
I want a new beginning,
So much that I could cry,

I’m scared of my options
One safe, one not,
I’m timid and I’m lonely,
I don’t even know what I’ve been taught,

Love is just a feeling,
I don’t need anyone,
So I lie again and again,
Maybe he’s the one?






I never meant to hurt you,
No I wouldn’t dare,
Even though you are with me,
You probably don’t care,

I have always been faithful,
I always lend my ear,
You don’t even see me,
Though it’s crystal clear,

I won’t ever leave you,
You know I never would,
So please do not abuse me,
You know you really could,

I stand by your side,
Unwavering devotion,
I love you for your kindness,
My love runs as deep as the ocean,

But you don’t see me,
No, not a bit,
Sometimes it’d seems easier,
If I just quit.








Love I’ve always gave,
Tenderness I tried to show,
Your problems I always listened to,
Always seemed to grow.

Hope I held high,
That maybe one day,
You would realize that I,
Was the more than just okay.

You never would listen,
No, not to poor me,
Smiles greeted me so coldly,
I couldn’t make you see.

Often times I’d see you walking,
Alone without a friend,
I wished I could be the one,
To stroll and hold your hand.

Your thoughts have everlastingly plagued me,
Although you don’t seem to care,
I want to squeeze and hold you,
As if I wasn’t bare.

You know I’ve always loved you,
Even through and through,
Look inside your secret heart,
You know it to be true.

But you don’t even love me,
I’ve seen it on your face,
You don’t even need me,
I’ve lost and failed the race.





I wanted you to listen,
The way you always did,
And now I know it’s possible,
To behave just like a kid.

You never would just listen,
You twist and played my words,
I only wanted empathy,
But that is for the birds.

I wanted you to hold me,
Just like you always have,
I’m feeble and I’m weak,
Just like the noble calve.

The distance wouldn’t hurt us,
I didn’t think so anyway,
So when I asked you for your love,
I cried and turned away.

You provoked my anger,
You provoked my hurt,
You provoked my loneliness,
(Need a last line).







I never would believe it,
You were the best for me,
But as I sit here crying,
I wonder if you see.

I try and try to count the times,
Tears flowed down my cheek,
But the answer is always cloudy,
I’ll think it for a week.

You would never leave me,
So I tell myself anyway,
You would never hurt me,
But I really cannot say.

Silence is my mantra,
I listen to at night,
It feels my ears with sorrow,
Also a little fright.

Will he ever leave me?
I ask again and again.
The reply is always hazy.
I don’t know where to begin.

He’s left me with my pity,
But my only fear,
That even he could leave me,
Then falls down the tear.






You were there when no one loved me,
You were there when no one cared,
So tell me why you shun me,
Even as you stared.

I held you only once,
In a close and tight embrace,
But now the distance closes in,
I’m lost without a trace.

Smiles happen slowly,
When I drop my guard,
You stand there smiling back at me,
Why god make this so hard?

If only you weren’t so special,
If only you weren’t real,
If only you were mean to me,
Then I wouldn’t feel.

I’m torn and I am tattered,
I cannot win at all,
But what happens dear old friend,
When you are why I fall?