Where am I heading?

I stand here uncertain and confused,
Tired, worn and abused
I don't know where it is I will go
Finding happiness has been so slow
I don't know what my future holds
I am worried as each card unfolds
Ultimately fate will choose my way
I just hope where that is I'll stay
There is so much about me I'd like to change
Everything about me right now is so strange,
You probably wonder why I make the choices I do
If I knew that myself I would honestly tell you
I cannot take this stress
My life is such a mess
Living with this pain each day
Has been so hard I must say
But as long as in the Lord I trust
I will finally receive the happiness that I lust.