Thirty-Seven

Midway through my life once more,

I sit staring into space

Wondering where my life went.



Still searching for the truth

within the hidden corners of

my mind, heart, & soul.



Wondering if I should indeed

reminisce on my life's journey,

as I do every couples of years.



Moments that happen in a year's time, changing your

outlook of life; moments that becomes in later years a stepping-stone.



A thing or a person whom crosses your path and you are forever a changed person...

It can be a Jubilation of life and your beliefs; then again it can be a struggle,

a disillusion or a betrayal.



Nevertheless, it’s usually an extreme case of a happy memory and more

often a sad moment outside of your routine with the aim to make you

stop and analyze your place or feeling in a year of your life.



When this change happens, we are never truly prepared for the outcome.

alternatively, We must adjust and accept. However, before this happens

the first reaction is to lose control. Weep you will follow by anger.

Nevertheless, on occasions I have to hold my feelings and/or tears

because my son is near.



How I ponder how my mother managed all those years.

Immobile to stop another hurt, another betrayal that I feel

I cannot lay bare and reveal for fear of losing all that, I hold dear.



On second thought, Thirty-Seven is not a good year to

Reminisce and review. I think I will give myself time and revise on my

life's journey when I am FORTY!