Just Say You Don't Like Me

I didn't mean to make you feel that way
Like I don't like you
I've felt that way for so long myself
Almost from the beginning
Like you don't like me
Saying you love me and want to be my friend
Saying I am your best friend
Then stabbing me in the back
Oh I've felt that way

Just say it
Instead of taking all my efforts
And stepping on them
Letting me be vulnerable
Just to make yourself feel good
Allowing me to put myself on hold
So you can become
Saying support me, support me
While shrugging off my dreams as nothing

I've felt that way for so so long
While lying next to you
Wondering who she was
And why you lied about her
If innocence is true

I felt that way when you called her every morning
As soon as you left our home
Then again on your breaks
And lunch
And as soon as you got off from the 9-5
I've felt that way
Each time you say you will work on communicating with me
When it took nothing for you to contact that chick
As many times as you could
Yet I was lucky if I saw a text from you all day long
While rubbing my pregnant belly and sore back

Losing sleep because I know you just hung up on her
When I walked into the room
Or closed your browser
So I wouldn't see

Just say the words
So I can know for certain
Before you come home late without so much as a say-so
And then look to me for back rubs and massages
And an occasional listening ear
For gripes to fall on
But the joys of your day
The glint caused by something I may never know about
Stay between you and the other

So I know that rejection
We go way back

I ask for more time, more connection
But I need to see to believe
I hear what you say
But those actions conflict
Keep me in the know

The little thing that brought us together is nowhere I can see
So if like, or love, is gone
I want to finally be free