They're Real

Yeah, they're real
And I did this to myself
I wanted to feel pain
I wanted to feel something
I didn't know what I was doing
I got addicted to the act
The feeling

The scars are real
And i will always have them
Whether the physical ones fade or not
They are a reminder of my past
Of what I could have done different
Of what I could have been
They remind me of the tears
Remind me of the phsych ward
And of the people I have hurt

Thats why im glad ive stopped
Yeah, the pain will always be there
The pain is real
The numbness is real

But I will never scar my body again
It's getting too old
I will not promise
But I will declare

I will say there will be no more self inflicted pain
I will say there will be no more hurt
And that I will never cry again
But I cannot promise
But I cannot break a promise

Maybe one day
When I am ready
And when my mind is more steady
But right now is not the time
Right now is the time to heal
Right now is the time to forget

Time heals all wounds
Whether accidental
Or self inflicted
Im willing to wait
I cant go on like this forever

The pain
The scars
The blades
The cuts
The hurt
The tears
The screams
The silence

Yes, they're real