Dark November Night

A chill runs down my spine,
As you whisper, “hold on tight.”
We’re on our way to scare some kids,
On this dark November night.
They all scream and we just laugh,
It was funny as you can see.
The five of us head back to the fire,
But instead you whisper, “follow me.
I know a shortcut through these woods,
We’ll be back in half the time.”
Its dark and I’m cold, so I weigh my options,
And finally I mumble “fine.”
You take my hand, say “don’t let go,
I don’t want you to get lost.”
The full moon’s out and twigs keep snapping,
I’ll hold on at any cost.
Next thing I know your stopping,
And turning to face me.
By light of the moon I see your crooked smile,
And a flash of white teeth.
You lean in for a kiss,
But I push you away.
“I’ll make you sorry for that,”
Is all you have to say.
With all your force you push me back,
My head hits hard on a tree.
Dizzy and pained, it takes all my strength,
Not to drop down on my kness.
You find me there all wobbly,
With one hand you hold me still.
Your lips find mine so quickly,
And your hands begin to feel.
Those hands move so roughly,
To places never touched before.
Your lips move down my neck,
I beg “please help me lord.”
I stand there just waiting,
For the hellish ordeal to be done.
You laugh and laugh and laugh,
And finish all your fun.
When you are finally tired,
You kiss me on the cheek.
Surprisingly all of that,
Has made me really weak.
When you let go I drop to the ground,
My fall cushioned by the leaves.
So disgusted with myself,
My stomach begins to heave.
You start to walk away,
And then turn to look at me.
“Just head north,” you say,
“It will lead you through the trees.”
My hair is a wreck,
There is a whole in my shirt.
Make up is running,
And now I am covered in dirt.
I pull myself together,
I know its time to go.
I arrive at the fire shortly,
And sit alone with neither friend nor foe.
My mom shows up eventually,
And I get fussed at for the whole
I cannot take all of this,
What a huge emotional tole.
Once home I become completely numb,
And nightmares haunt me when I sleep.
The only thing that I can do,
Is allow myself to weep.
Everytime I look at you,
Even now you see.
I shrink away and hide,
Because of what you did to me.
You stole all of my innocence,
And corrupted me beyond repair.
Thank God my v-cards still intact,
But by how much of a hair.
I have nightmares every night,
And I doubt their end is near.
I can barely go into the woods at all,
Without some overwhelming sense of fear.
But the world keeps spinning, your gone soon,
I can’t wait until that day.
I won’t have to deal with you again,
You’ll be off somewhere far away.
I’ll finally be able to move on,
And try to forget about you.
Try to focus more on school, music, and friends,
Rather than the hell you put me through.
You’ll never get what you deserve,
For what you did to me.
Even though sometimes,
I think the fault is mine you see.
And I will never bring,
What you did to light.
That’s my deepest darkest secret,
What happened on that dark November night.