the beloved one

Chapter 1 the beginning of the end
Amy


I hear Amy Amy  and the sound of my name is like a knife digging into my heart  I scream  No No please no as I watch her life go from her little body I scream no no my baby my baby as I cradle her lifeless body her blood on my hand I scream  in pain.  my husband James runs in the room and says what wrong what happ……….. He cuts off gets down on the floor next to me he closes the eyes of our daughter  forever.    The he says what happened with tears running down is face. I say I killed her but I did not want to they told me to James    I scream and say no no no I love her no no please not my baby not my baby   
Chapter 2 the insane
Amy

I wake up into bewilderment them someone comes in the room I say “Wwho are you” .she say” I’m your doctor “  I say “what way I’m I in a hospital were James' and my daughter Lily” “don’t you remember last night “ the doctor ask “ What happened last night is  lily and Jamie and I were out to go get lily’s favorite ice cream we going because it lily’s third birthday I love my daughter”. The Doctor say “oh ok how nice” she  turns to leave.  I say “wait why am I in a hospital” she leaves without answering my question. You killed her. You killed her  . “No go away leave me alone  please go away go go go” I scream “help no I did not kill anyone”  at my scream a nurse  comes running in and say “what  a matter”  she says  in a heavy Irish ascent. I a replied “they want leave me alone there telling me I kill someone and I won’t kill anyone”.  The nurse smiles at me and puts her hand on my shoulder and says “there is no one here expect you and I no one is here that will hart you I promise”.  I ask the nurse “where is James”  she replies a “he doing something impartment”. “Oh” I say.
          I few hours later I hear someone walking down toward my room I freeze in fear the door opens I say in utter joy  James  in a sad expression on his face he says hello Amy how are you feeling as he said the words a glint of rage showed in the way he say the word and on his face but he was fighting it so it would not show I wonder  why  we talk about everything  I said in alarmed what’s wrong did something happen at work James is an artist he sometime gets upset when he lost focus or must up I always tell him there is not a reel mess up    because he is brilliants in everything I was about to tell him this when he said no it not work  I say then what’s wrong my love  I am so bewilder because James is not Easley angered by anything but something was wrong and I what’d to no  he say    rage now he’s almost yelling at me  it you Amy after  what you did to my beautiful daughter my sweet beautiful daughter  our daughter how could you way did you kill her way  I thought you loved her you told her you loved her more the life its self you told her every night how much you loved her more than I did  more than anyone  was that a lie then were you planning to kill her from the day she was born to the day she die Amy did you love her Amy or was that just word are you planning to kill me to Amy  and  duped are bodies somewhere and you go and live your life merry as can be he finished yelling at me with more rage and sadness the I ever see  he was crying  I am too I said what do you mean lily’s dead and I killed her I would never kill her the very a thought  of her  dying is like a thousand shots in my heart I love her so very much and you I would never hurt you  I love you and the thought of loosing you  is an unbearable thought  I love you James snaps then why did you kill her why Amy why  what I don’t remember that what my baby is dead NO NO NO she cannot  be no no I cry uncontrollable I see through my tries James leave  I’m heartbroken at the site of him leaving me but how can he say such things like that of cause I would never hurt my baby girl I love her so much so so much I feel like a knife was thrown in to my chassed  I can breathe I cannot find the air I’m gasping for it  I scream God no please no  help no my bady no no no please I cried myself to sleep 
I fell in to a great wave of sadness and bewilderment James has not came  to see me I miss him so much I miss my baby I miss her so much it hurts to think about it when I breathe it like a knife digging into me I try so hurt every day to survive I hear the doctors say how I killed my lily and how I’m insane I ask them if the evil voice will go away they say they don’t know  I think if the voice go way James will come back I miss him I cry out is name as I cry myself to sleep every night  I’m not allowed to go home I missed the funeral my little girls funeral they say I will have to stay in this hell hole for the rest of my life they tell me I pray to God that I die and get to see my angel I hope she does not know what her mother did to her I love her so much I love her more than my own life I would give my life to her if I could God know I would  I feel like in droning slowly I hear them all the time now  they tell me it my fault  and I not good for anything I know there right I hate myself for what I did I cry all the time



Chapters 3 coming back 
James



My god I scream in ager I so mad at her Mary god how did I merry her. she killed my lily what was next me I sole it the knife him her hand Mary I close lily’s eyes and what gets me most is that I still love Amy so much they tell me Amy’s doctor that she cry all the time and they believe that she did not mean to hurt Lily. Amy talk about the evil voices in her head sis I don’t know what to do Mary I think you should go and talk to Amy  and let her know your there for her I know you what to be there I know you  do. Mary says. Go and talk to her I..... I’m leaving I scream at Mary. Mary yells back where are you going I say going to the hospital form the mentally insane sorry Mary bye. 
            I walk into Amy’s room. She sleeping I walk back out I ask one of the nurse if I can wake her up they say I can. I go to Amy’s bedside I shake her. She slowly wakes.  A big smile goes across her face the as fast as it came now it gone. I gasp as I take in her pale skin and how skinny she is it like she as not eat in months. I she says James in a whisper I smile at her and says hey how are you. Ok you.  I’m good are you being treated well. The nurses are kind to me though I don’t    dissever it James I miss you. I miss you too Aims. You don’t have to lie. What do you mean I say in alarm.  You should not miss me I’m worthless I hurt our child I deserve to die they tell me every night I agree.  How tells you that the nurse I will have a word with them. No not the nurse no not the nurse the evil voice they tell me they’re the ones of tolled me to kill her. She is crying now.  I’m disturbed by what she tells me. I ask her honey?  She looks at me. I start again Honey Wwho did the Evil Voice tell you to kill lily and why did they tell you.  They told me  to do it because they were going to touchier her then burn her until she died unless I killed her with a knife I did not know what to do James I thought it would be quicker them the other way I was scare they were going to ask me to do that to you to I hate myself for what I did but I’m so glad that they did not get her so glad. Sweetheart you should of told me I would of help to… she cut me off.