Let Go

My heart seems heavy as
Though it has taken on a sack of stones
Slowly sinking down
Into my spine
Between the very vertebrates that
Use to help me stand tall.

My eyes feel
Heavy themselves.
Two hazel bricks
Glossed over by
The rain that
Pours from my soul.

My ears try not to
Listen as you say
Those three words.
I love you…
Broken words coming
From an angel’s mouth
Angel…
That may be a lie.

Angel’s lips
So sweet and red
Like the blood that
Pumps through my veins.
But no good lies within you.

I’ve wondered many a night
If you have a soul,
Or whether what you said was
All just to trick me.

Tears fall like the water
From a leaking sink.
I remember the days
Spent talking and touching.
What seemed like love
Was merely a game to you.

My heart brakes while yours
Still beats as it did the day
It was given to you.
I try to brake away
From this hold you have on me,
But somehow it’s too strong.
I look for comfort
Within a glass bottle,
Or even a piece of reflecting
Metal.

For a few minutes
The smoke filled air
Comforts and relaxes me.
Brain covered with a haze.
Body to slow to react
To the very emotions
I’m trying to feel.

But that’s only a
Temporary fix.
‘Cause one the smoke
Clears and my mind is back
From its vacation
I feel again
And the pain is ten times stronger.
Try to make myself forget you.

Focus on school,
Family, friends,
Where ever you’re not,
But you fallow!
Friends talk about you,
Family asks about you!

You linger on me like
A bad taste that lingers on your
Tongue after eating something rotten.
Your love or lack there of hurts worse
Than the cuts that line my arms
And the bruises on my knees.

How do I get over you?
How do I get rid of all this pain?
Another tear falls.
My heart sinks
Deep within the very vertebrates
That use to help me stand tall.