How I Feel

I can never seem to explain how I feel,

Even with all the feelings locked inside

My soul, they just can’t seem to find

The right exit, like they end up trickling

Through the incinerator instead of my lips

But even so, I feel like I can convey something

Like how I’m feeling happy right now

Because I’m making gifts for my friends

How I hope they’ll like them

Because I’ve worked really hard

To make sure they won’t feel left out

Like I used to in elementary school

When I had no idea how to talk to

Others, because I was so used to just

Just being by myself, and I didn’t

I just didn’t like the change where

Our teachers were making us share

And be around each other all the time

When all I wanted to do was go

Outside and run around by myself

I felt free when I had no one around me

And soon I realized that I started

To want to be around people

Only I had no idea of how I could

Could talk, could compare

To these kids who had already chosen

And already seemed to know

Their friends and their characters

What I had wanted to understand

From the very start!

I’m grateful that I was able to be

Myself, even when I didn’t know who

Was my friend and who was my enemy

Even when I didn’t know who I was

I was able to somehow adapt

And become who I am today

And I wouldn’t wish it any other

Way! And that’s why I want

To make sure my friends

Know that I am their friend

And their support

No matter what

And that I really am thankful

That they’ve been here for me

Even through all the drama.