How I feel Inside

Sometimes I feel so down inside I wonder why I do
Yet all my friends seem to be so happy, I long to fill their shoe
It's easy for me to find my own faults, though unimportant they may seem
But walk a day in my own path and you'd probably yearn to scream

I know that looks should not be that significant, but I wish that I could correct
The funny nose, the long limbs, all I that I view as personal defect
So stupied, and self centered you may be inclined to say
If you only knew how I felt each moment of the day

Imagine always being overlooked by guys, because there is always someone is who 'finer'
While all your friends find love, and I feel like the outsider
Wondering each day if someone would just love me for me
I guess time will tell, but how long must I wait to see

And that one special person I wish would look my way
But then I turn around and walk away
Hoping and longing to be noticed , yet deep inside
Too afraid of rejection, so I take that stride

Growing up shy and afraid to express my inner me
Makes me anxious, unhappy, and filled with fury
Always conscience of what someone else may think
The path to insanity, I feel I'm on the brink

Yet all my worries lie within how I view
My body, my life, the old and the new
So maybe change lies within me
I learn to love me, for what I can be

Until then I pour out my heart
And pray one day for a brand new start
Just to be brave enough to be who I am
And all of life's pressures to forcefully withstand .



By: Loving Heart
(a true emotional experience)