Scathing Pain

Here I sit once again nauseous hurting undecided
what comes next in my world divided

The pain I feel searing and such increases
so greatly with the slightest touch;

today nausea and lightening strikes no
end in sight for this unending plight..

How do you explain explosions and such if
no one understands what it feels like to feel
like the end of a plug left in the socket dipped
in a pool of water and left untouched.

I agree new to this quandry not sure how
to not ask for too little not too much
you ask why and yet you know those
of you who sit and tell me so.

No one knows what each other pain is like you
look it up in words to describe...Tired I am
of all this foolishness crap my head hurts now
and yet once again I keep it in to be
honest who really wants to know.

Was I this way when it was I when I looked in
patients benevolent eyes..I hope now as I did
then I judged them not of the turmoil within..

When it hurts the  most it almost feels good;
maybe I deserve this pain unrelenting electrifying
constantly grasping my face and soul.

Don't want to make this more then it is only
want to describe what cannot be seen.
One sided shocks dull ache at best this
neuralgia puts me to the greatest of tests.

Go online others suffer too but to read black
letters here only describes those of you.  We may
share this terrible foe but me I  never like
to give in even when I doubt
I cannot win this fight I must finish it out.

As far as I see and as much as I know
trigeminal neuralgia is a qualified foe. 
Opponents I have known my fair share
in this world but this time my friend
this bout is yours.....