Scattered thoughts of a unique

I feel myself falling into the Abyss,I haven't panicked! My mind has already travelled sown this road before. Most of the thought that I used to have already adapted to a new way of thinking. Everyday a little to pieace of me that was blissful and happy is being replaced with hatred and contempt. The darkness is spreading; my innocence is the only thing that in its way. I'm afaid I won't be psychologically strong enough to fight off the my anger from becoming hateful ideas. Normally I can understand the rage that surround me, but those days are now few and far between. Soon Popcorn will be dead and you with me. Maybe this fury is my self-absorbed ego trying to resurface. Perhaps this happy-go-lucky person everyone sees as isn't the real me. I hope that not the case, because I like to smile, even id only for a little while