Love's Suicidal Aftermath

Brush my teeth with bleach and swallow
Look in the mirror and think of you
You make my legs feel really hollow
Hope you're thinking of me too.

Drop a plugged in hair dryer in the bath
Turn it on and feel relaxed
My twisted sadness turns to wrath
Look down at my legs just recently waxed.

Stick a fork in an electric socket
Remember how you said I'm energetic
Ready to take off like a rocket
Later on you called me apathetic.

Throw myself off a rooftop
Of a skyscraper building
Waiting for my soul to drop
Watch my world become so fulfilling.

You left me love, and I don't know why
You offered me so many reasons, which one was I?
And you know I tried so hard
But my gates were locked up and barred
It was too scary to let you in, my love...
I know you won't forgive me, my love...

Throw myself in front of a train
Feel the wind until it hits me
Let my insides land beside my brain
Finally I can be dead and free.

Hang myself using the tree
That we first sat together under
It's as clear as the eye can see
Our relationship was only a blunder...
To you...
To you...

Shoot myself with a black pistol
The bullet feels like a kiss you'd give
Your warm blood's a liquid crystal
And I hope I'm something you'll never have to relive.

Overdose on assorted meds
I'll arrange them by color before swallowing
You'll forget about the nightmares we've bred
And I'll remember you're voice, that sweet calling.

You left me love, and I don't know why
You offered me so many reasons, which one was I?
And you know I tried so hard
But my gates were locked up and barred
It was too scary to let you in, my love...
I know you won't forgive me, my love...