Numb mind What is this feeling I feel so disconnected from this feeling I have felt it rarely in my life, so it seems. I have known it very little Now it torments me My mind is drained of any desire My mind is drained of desire My mind is fooled My mind is missing chemicals it got every day Now My diet, I am changing it I am doing it to help my body heal But in the three days of doing it Two days have been numbing my mind I am not strong Yesterday I succumbed And yet Today I feel the same What do I do Is this even normal What if I'm lacking nutrients. And now I'm starving my body more But I need to heal This is the way But I'm not eating enough Oh what to do What do I do Why am I so weak Am I? I'm slow, that's okay Im.slow and weak, that's fucked That's my perception And I disempower myself with these thoughts But my actions I fail to produce good from Why is this my everyday How can I change? How can I do more? What are the questions that will lead me to domore? How can I be strong every day? How can I be strong and do what I want, 80% of the time? How can I be strong to learn? How can I be strong to prepare my food? How can I be strong to do the other things I was doing already, and stopped because of my health? How can I break this break? Move Get air Open the doors Cook Learn How can I do this for months, the only way to actually do anything for worthwhile progress? How can I keep going? How can I be strong? How can I be strong? How can I do more in my day? |