Always Surviving, Never living

Always Surviving, Never Living
By Jady-e

Always surviving, never living,
Always lying, never really healing,
Always liked, never loved,
Always a friend, never the beloved.


Always there, never actually there,
Always dying, never reviving,
Always failing, never winning,
Always crying, never laughing.


Always the second, never the first,
Always a choice, never the decision,
Always the lesson, never the experience,
Always surviving, but why am I never living.