broken heart

i am writing this out of my heart
it it sore and torn
i was appreciated and neglected
thought about carelessly
introduced and dismissed
i wish it would go away
but they say that it all heals in time
i beg to differ

each thought i retrace
retract
re-act
makes my eyes get red
the tears behind them beg to be set free
i made a song about thee
wrote and constructed my first tune
and the next day i was in a ruin
i was going to sing it to her, to tell it
the way i wanted it to be, forever, just us

i have so much to say, to reveal
i don't think i could hold them in much longer
i use this pen and paper as a remedy
i attempt to heal this heart i am left with
i see it in shambles
i attempt to repair it, hoping this will suffice
i know it won't
i know it might help enough
i could go on, another day

you kept me by your side
you never let me get out of line
you did it all, i didn't mind
you would talk to me, we had fun
you brought up articles i couldn't believe
you relaxed me and made it a little easier
you left me the next day
you left me without saying why
you tore me up and just walked away
you didn't look back
you kept on your way

the pain i felt when you told me the words
i tried to explain to you what you just did to me
i guess it wasn't very realistic
since you had it all planned out
without letting me know your intentions
in spite of all of this
i can still maintain my thoughts
though just barely

when you see people in movies and in books breaking up, it doesn't seem realistic why the guy would just sit there crying about it for a week. i now feel his pain. it actually hurts. it isn't pulsating, it is just there. all of it directing on my heart. the thing i used the most to treat you with.

i just wish you wouldn't go... i wish i could change your mind... i feel like there is noone else for me...

i will still try to love you.

- rain