You And Me

I wake up crying;
I wake up from my sleepless nights
Thinking I am dying.
I am hurting so much,
That sometimes I do not know what to do.
When you ask me how I am
My mind goes blank.
And I do not know how to answer you!
I tell you I am on top of the world,
But what I do not say is that I want to jump off.
I know you can see the hurt in my eyes,
But that hurt is just part of the disguise.
I cannot show you how I really feel,
I cannot show you how I deal,
Because that would mean
That you see the me that is crying
The me that is in so much pain and agony
That it is burning up inside of me!
So I put on as much happiness that I can muster,
And hope to god that I do not fluster,
I cannot tell you that I miss you!
I cannot tell you that I am crazy about you!
And I cannot tell you that I am falling in love with you!
Because I know that me saying this
Would bring back too many memories.
Memories that you want to forget
And memories that I cannot seem to forget.
It just hurts when you tell me
That I can never be as close to you as I want to be.
It just hurts because I realised
That you stopped trusting me.
That it has stopped being you and me.
You and me!