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** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** Blog City: Day 161 August 11th 2014 Prompt: Tell me about RAGE - Yours, someone else's, the concept of, or any interpretation of this that rocks your socks. Well First of all I like that you have these two so differening prompts today. I find it really interesting to go from talking about RAGE, to talking about purity and humility.  Rage to me is quite different from anger. Rage, is out of control, and bad things tend to happen when reage is going down. I don't like rage. I grew up with parents who never let me feel angry. It just wann't allowed. If I ever got angy I would be shamed for feeling that emotion. So I am in the process of learning about how to process anger. Over the last twelve months I have been living without and antidepressent for the first time in 23 years. This has made for some really interesting times, as my emotions are no longer numbed, or have the edges mellowed. So I have had a few rage attacks, where I have felt out of control and words and actions are unfolding in front of me and I just don't know what to do with them. It has completley spun the kids out, because they have never seen me like this. It has also spun me out. They have'nt been too bad, usually Ill throw all the dirty dishes in a big garbage bag and calming tell the kids that I am throwing them all away...I am writing this and it is really challenging just trying to sort through my thoughts and emotions about this...I suffer from anger remorse, when I have had an attack. I then have to run around and apologise for being human... Okay, this is getting very disjointed. I do not do other peoples rage. It scares me. To be honest, the first thing I think about when I think of RAGE, is our society, where mindless acts of rage happen on a daily basis. And thats it in a nutshell for me. Rage is mindless and anger can be mindful. If channelled and processed appropriatley. yeah... Thats me done on that on rage...as I can't even process it in writing.  ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** BCOF: Day 631 Augusst 11th 2014 Prompt: The Flower of the day is Lily of the valley. Write a poem, short story or anything about lily of the valley. Lily of the valley, such a beautiful flower with lovely meaning behind it. I hope you enjoy my little poem. Lily of the valley reflects the purest heart Strong yet with humility it sets itself apart Lily of the valley did grow from mary's tears theat fell to the ground at the foot of all our fears Lily of the valley flowering in May wards of evil spirits that wish to come and play Lily of the valley the tear drops of our pride returns our happiness pure love personified And that is how I roll Blessings Andi ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** |
** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** BCOF Day 269 August 9th 2014 Prompt:What Would heaven be like for you? Heaven is this amazingly beautiful place. Its serenity is second to none. It is a lot like where we are now to a certain point, accept we do not have our human, limited body. We are now celestial beings. Pure energy vibrating at our optimal best. If we were to look like our human form we would present looking like we did when we were about 30 yrs of age. The spirit world as I call it has a rose coloured light that is always present. A bit like the pinky light that is omnipresent at dawn, on a summers day. Everything has a rose coloured tinge to it. It is soft and calming. The spirit world is 'home' it is our begining and our end. Earth is mearly a place we have come to visit to learn lessons, and grow as a being. In the spirit world there is a very large library of knowledge, this holds all documentation of every life we have ever lived, here on earth. When we pass, and head back home, after being greeted and cocooned for some time receiving unconditional love from the purest source, so we can adjust to being back home. We visit the library and watch a video replay of our life we just had. we have pure thought and no judgment. We reflect on our lives and see "did we learn and do what we came here to do." The spitit world is set up a lot like here we have our places and areas we dwell in, however we do not need to transport around like we do down here. We mearly have to think where we want to be and we are there. Time does not exist up in the spirit world. Well I should really say accross, being just a different dimensional world alligned to our own. What could be 60 yrs here could be but a blink of the eye, in the spirit world. Some believe that at night when we sleep we go back home an visit. Many people have spoken of dreams realting to this. I never want to wish my life away, as I still have much to do. But I do miss home. Oh and this is just my belief and opinion. I truly respect everyones beliefs. ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** Blog City Day159 Saturday August 9th 2014 Prompt:Was it a good year when you turned 17? Tell us things that happened to you that year. Well the year I turned 17 I was going to technical college. I got expelled from shcool at the end of year 9 (only 14) so I went back and did my year ten equivalancey. I passed with flying colours, and I was so proud of myself. It was also good to know I wasnt dumb I just needed to appy myself...funny that...teachers had been saying that for years. I don't remember anything else specific of that year. It was just another drunken year, of being stuck in a controlling relationship. So...yeah! That was 17. And that is how I roll Blessings Andi |
** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** BCOF: Day 628 Friday August 8th 2014 Foounded in 1999 The Secret Society of Happy people as Admit Youre Happy Day, Happiness Haappens day is celebrated each year on August 8th. This day was created to recognize and express happiness. August 8 was chosen as it was the anniveersary of the first membership in 1988. Prompt: Share with us what makes you happy...is expressing joy easy for you. What a cool idea this whole concept. I have never heard of happiness day before. Crikey! lots of things make me happy, unfortunatley the incidious sickness of rushing means I miss a few of the happy moments that come my way each day. But there are a few things that slow me down during the day and make me happy. When I am out and about doing this and doing that, and I make eye contact with a baby or small child, it stops me in my tracks and I get to have a very happy moment of connectedness, with another little human being. These are my daily little spontaneous happy moments. I love babies and little toddlers. They are the closest beings to the spirit world you can get as they have not been here that long. They have this amazingly refreshing auroa around them that says "chill out, smile, take time to just be" They are a happy reminder to me to be gratful. Other things that make me happy are the ocean, flowers (I could look at flowers all day!) Colours, Connecting with people really makes me happy and most of all my kids make me happy, when there not driving me crazy!. Crafting makes me happy, and those few and far between days when I actually feel organised and on top of things really makes me happy too. Did I mention flowers  Lime green makkes me happy!I can usually express my joy pretty well. As I said though I need to slow down and smell the roses so to speak to remember that life is pretty happy. ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** Blog City Day 158 August 8th 2014 Prompt: If you were trapped in an elevator for 12 hours, which three bloggers would you most want with you in that situation? Keep in mind 12 hours is a long time. First of all if I was trapped in an elevator, whatch out! I'll be the chick flippin out big time. So If I was going to be stuck I would want Charlie ~   Cause he would make mme laugh and distract me inbetween flippin out. I think I would also want Lyn's a Witchy Woman  as I think she would keep me pretty calm and I would through in Fivesixer  Because I think him and Charlies together would make me laugh even more. And that is how I roll Blessings Andi ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** |
| Dear Blogging friends. I just wanted to let you know that I am a bit out of the loop at the moment. I deeply apologise for not getting to your blogs. I am just managing to get my blog entries in, on top of participating in a couple of competitions and getting some writing done. I have just taken on the task of homeschooling my yr 8 daughter Anisa and am feeling quite overwhelmed. My 16 yr old daughter is also struggling to get her self to school due to health reasons. I am hoping that we will over the next few weeks get a bit more routine in our homeschooling and thus it will create more time for me again. So please don't think me rude as it is all of you and WDC that are keeping me sane at this time. Keep writing! Blessings Andi |
** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** BCOF: Day 625 Aug 5th '14 Prompt:Can you single out a perfect meal. What was your experience either making it or eating it. Well you all know that I hate cooking with a passion. So I do not have a lot of experiences of making the perfect meal. When the kids were younger I cooked more but that was when I could make one meal that they all would eat. These days I have to make 4 different meals to suit each childs different pallet or philosophy as one is now a vegan. So in my experience the perfect meal is a meal I do not have to prepare. And quite often it doesn't matter what it is. It could be cheese on toast and it would taste perfect to me because I did'nt have to prepare it. We do not eat out often purley due to the expense of it as there are so many of us. But a few weeks ago I took my three big girls to a cafe called Grill'd which did awesome burgers and amazing herb chunky chips. Now the food was fantastic and so delicious but what made it the perfect meal was having my three big girls around me all laughing and remembering fond memories of when they all lived together. I could not have had a better experience of such joy and happiness and a lot of love, so that was my perfect meal. ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** Blog City Day 155 Aug 5th '14 Prompt: Power corrupts, so does money, beauty, sex, freedom and health...Have you had any experience with a person who has beccome morrally or politically corrupt. Do people need to be persueaded like Shakespares McBeth. This prompt makes me think of a Doctor my sister had to deal with in May just gone. My sister has been physically unwell for oveer a year. Her weight dropped to a dangerous 45 kilos (and she is 170 cm tall) and she was barley able to eat. Blood test showed that her body was in starvation, so things were getting desperate. Lisa had a parasite living in her bowel that was causing her to starve. Now most Doctor's in general don't see the Blasto bug as being a problem. The last line of treatment is by a Doctor in Sydney who does a proceedure of intra bowel antibiotics. He is Litterally the only man on the planet that does this treatment. People come from all around the world to receive this treatment from him. This being our only hope of saving our sister we ventured over ther in May for her to have the proceedure. She was weak and extremley stressed and I was just plaing freaking out with anxiety. On the day of the proceedure as I had Taj with me who is only 6 I dropped my sister off for the day proceedure and awated the phone call to pick her up. Well, this man is indeed revolutionary and saves peoples lives but he is the most arrogent man we have ever met. The power of being the only man walking this earth to heal this specific condition had completley corrupted him. I found out later from my sister that just before she went in for her treatment he had a meeting with her and he proceeded to TELL her that he was (not in these exact words) God's gift to medicine. He apparently went on for a good ten minutes stating how fantastic he was without one morsal of humility in his words or demenour. The power to heal had truly corrupted him. And the trouble is no one can say anything to him because one might need him and his services one day. When I collected Lisa after the proceedure she was really sick, she had'nt come out of the anaesthetic properly and was violently vomiting. They expectied me to take her back to the motel and care for her there. I refused saying I was not going to be responsible for her in this state. I requested a transfer to a general Emergancy department. This doctor then came to speak to Lisa about it and when I said sometning about her condition not being right, he completley ignored me, he did'nt even look at me. He didn't care at all about her post condition. Anyway long story short she could have died but survied and is getting better by the day. And this is the greatest display of the gift of life corrupting someone I have ever experienced. And that is how I roll Blessings Andi ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** |
** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** Blog City DAy 154 Aug 4th '14 Prompt: tell us something you follow. (interpret this anyway that grooves your noodle) Good Morning all. I guess the main thing I follow is Australia Football Legue. AFL. Most of you would not be familiar with this sport as it is only played here in Aus (funny that hence the name! . we have 18 teams from different states the majority being from Victoria because origionlly it was the Victorian footbal league. Over the years it spread to the the other states being involved. Perth has two teams one being the West Coast Eagles (BOO!) and the other being the Fremantle Dockers (YAY!) teams consist of 18 players being on the field at any one time they have a ball a bit like the grid iron ball pointy at both ends. (words are escaping me at 6am in the morning! Anyways This is the one sport I really follow we are avid Dockers fans and we are in the top 4 as it is drawing close to the finals in september. We better bloody win!!! It is so our turn! AfL over the years has become a bit sterile there are what feels like ten million rules. The good old game from the 60's,70's 80's are still awesome to watch. So much "beefing" between the teams. Apart from sport I do try and follow though struggle to keep up with nutrition, homeopathics and naturpathics...seeking out the next bit of info as to how to improve myself and my kids. However my addiction to coffee and diet coke, kinda inhibits this! ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** BCOF Day 624 Aug 4th '14 Prompt: Beauty is in the eye of the beholder - old saying. Write a story or poem about something you think is beautiful but no one else agrees with you. I have a new man in my life though I rarley get to see him with all my kids and now homeschooling my yr 8 daughter. I think he is beautiful but my kids do not agree. But I guess it is there job not to! My Boyfriend that I love is Well...Cuddly, tall but not buff. I think he holds a beauty That others can't always see I showed my kids a picture They fell laughing to There knees However they agreed He looks better than the last one this comment did Appease. And that is how I roll Blessings Andi ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** |
** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** Blog City Day 151 August 1st 2014 In writer digest I read about Ernest Hemmingway having a lot to say about writing. He has been well quoted since his birth 115 yrs ago. Prompt: Pick one of papa's quotes and create your blog entry with that as your focal point. Quote: "I like to listen. I have learned a great deal from listening carefully. Most people never listen." I am a people watcher. Iove doing it to the point my kids are always nudging me saying"can you stop staring at those people!" Anyways I also love listening to people's converstions. But only if they are in my ear shot of course! This aspect is facinating because it brings to life the person I am observing. I too have learnt many a thing by just listening. I love not only to hear the content of dialogue but what words they use and their tone of voice and body language. It can be a feast at the best of times.With my close friends and people I directly speak with I am always trying to be mindful to really 'hear' what they are saying to me. It makes for a deeper connection with this person. Interestingly enough because I do not watch TV or read the newspaper this is where I learn whats going on in the world as well. And I agree with Papa, these days especially we are all in such a rush and it is easy to just not listen and hear others anymore. Which is a shame because we can learn so much from just slowing down and being in the moment with another.BCOF Day 621 August 1st Prompt: What was the most fun thing you have done this summer? Well my dear people I will have to change this to done "last" Summer as I am in Winter at this time in Aus. Last summer was really challenging as my Sister was in hospital for two months of it. So I was flat out running between her home and her kids and my home and my kids. But I did find time for fun. It was on Australia Day Jan 26th I went for coffee at a lovely coffee shop by the beach and spent 3 hours just chatting to a lovely man who is now I guess my boyfriend. (sounds so stupid using that word at the age of 43! . It was an especially wonderful day, the sun was shining bright and for the first time in a long time, I was really truly relaxed. He provided me with the blessing of some down time and good laughs. And that is how I roll Blessings Andi ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** |
** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** Blog City. Day 150 July 31st Prompt: Make a list of 5 things you never break like: a heart, promise, your computer or whatever comes to mind. Gosh just looked at the time! Where has the morning gone. Okay things I never break. Well this is hard, I am sensing that I break everything, though not intentionally. I guess one I never break is a promise. If I am unsure of my ability to definatley do what I say I actually never use the word promise. I always say "I will do everything I possible can to help you" or to my kids " I will do everything I can to make 'your request' a reality, but there are no promises' So I totally cover myself there. Unfortunatley I have broken a heart though not intentionally and really he was fool for not treating me right. I always keep my commitment promises. I have done a lot of volunteer work in the past for not for profit organisations and various schools P&C's I am always there 110% So Far two things I never break! I know what I wish I could break is all the dishes in the house then I would'nt have to wash them day in day out. If I wasn't an enviromentalist I would use disposable plates. More might come to me later...I hope. BCOF: Day July 31st {Prompt:Write about a time when you acted first and thought later, giving into your impulse. Well I have suffered from this disease most of my life! I have an addictive personality so am very prone to acting out and then thinking later. I am getting better with age though!I guess my biggest thing I did was relocate my family to another state on impulse. It was the excitment of something different. However the kids hated it and all ended up coming back to perth to their Dad, so the trip was all of 9 months and a major fail! I also hate shopping in the real world. So have made impulse buys of the home shopping TV which most of the time I regret especially when I can't actually afford it! But as I said before, with age comes greater wisdom and insight so I am learning to sit on an impuse now and not necessarily act on it these days. And that is how I roll Blessings Andi ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** |
** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** Blog City Day 149 July 30th Prompts: Name three books that made your childhood a happier place.{/c} Well I certainly do not want this to sounds Like a 'poor me' becasue it isn't. I am accepting of 'it was what it was'. I do not have one memory of my paretns taking me to the library to borrow books. We didn't even have many books in the house except for 'mills and boons' that my Mum would borrow from the second hand exchange shop every once and a while. However we were never offer to do this or guided and encouraged to so. I can't remember bed time stories being read to me. I think Dad sometimes maybe made up a story but that could be something I have made up in my mind. I will also balance that a bit in saying that my sister and I were dancing from the age of 3 so our whole life was dancing, dancing and more dancing (a bit like the 'Dance Mom's'show on TV. However I am all about Blessings as you know and the blessing of this is that with my own children they got the complete opposite. From when they were in the womb they were read to. And as we homeschooled to the respective ages of 12,9,6 reading was an enjoyable fun experience we shared many times through out the day. As they got a bit older I remember the greatest times was bed time. I started reading Harry Potter to them and they loved it. So books are a big part of our lives now. Taj is only Six and I have started reading 'Deltora quest" to him and he at bed time. I love it. {{size:4.5}c:rose}BCOF Day 619 July 30th Prompt: what is your favourite month or months of the year? write a myth about it. My favourite months are the Summer months. I am drawn to the hot sun like a God who daily energises me and cleasnes my soul. I love the feeling of the sun dancing on my skin. I love the freedom of bathers, shorts and a singlet top. Feburary also happens to be my month of birth and interestingly enough there is a myth related to the child born in the summer months. It is said that the child of Summer is born sensitive, kind and loving. She will feel the world is resting on her shoulder's through many times of her life. But there is hope! They say that this child in her 43rd summer of her life will make the trek 5 minutes down the road for me! to the ocean where she will be seem diving into the cool waters and as she does she will be cleansed and revialised and reclaim her power. Myth claims that passerbyers can actually see a radient glow come from this Summer child like a blinding light and thus she finally will walk this plant as a whole being again.I like this myth and coincendtly, it happens to be my 43 rd year! And that is how I roll Blessings Andi |
** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** Blog City Day 148 29thth July '14 Prompt:What are you afaraif of? All of us at one point in our life has feared something, How did you handle it? Fear! the beast that governs a lot of my life. I could easily go with my fear of the dark or my intense fear of flying but I thought I would do what the prompt says and dig a little deeper. I suffer from agroaphobia (an abnormal fear of being in crowds, public places or open spaces, sometimes accompanied by panic attacks). However it ebbs and flows from being severe to where I haven't left the house at all for a month (not even gone to the letter box) to me functioning quite well and having an awareness of it in the back of my mind but I am able to push through. So this is a very broad spctrum fear that can be crippling if allowed to dominate in my mind Most commonly I get a severe bout of agoraphobia the month leading up to christmas. Which is really inconvenient to say the least. But I just cannot stand the freneticness of the energy of people rushing around like maniacs not concentrating on anything else except what they are going to buy next. Unfortuanatley I am not to fond of Christmas and this is one of the reasons. the definition of agoraphobia uses the word abnormal beacause not only is the fear itself abnormal but it produces highly abnormal and irrational thoughts and fears in ones head. Everything outside the home or outside 'clinic' is 'unsafe' the only saftey is within the containment of four walls where I can control real and perceived dangers. In the outside world I have not control. So if I do have to venture out these are some of the thoughts I have to deal with. The bridge I have to drive over to get to where I am going is just suddenly going to collapse as I am half way over. My hands are going to suddenly spin my steering wheel and veer me off the bridge to my death, I will get trapped and drown. A car is going to crash into me,the helicopter flying over head is going to crash into me. A plane is going to crash into me. I am suddenly going to get hit by a piece of space debris...and the list goes on as to what I can imagine is going to happen to me. How do I deal with it? Well I am not a huge fan of CBT (cognative behaviourl therapy) as a form of therapy. However when it comes to being in crisis and having an irrational thought, it can be very useful. In CBT you talk to yourself by asking your self questions like "What are the chances of the bridge suddenly collapsing?" pretty much nil! Okay in knowing that you are actually safe to cross this bridge are you not? Okay I can safely cross this bridge. I have a clear path ahead of me and I am safe. there is nothing flying above me and I trust that I will not suddenly veer off the bridge. I can do it! This is how I have to talk to myself the whole time as I am crossing till I realise I did cross it and I am safe. I then have evidence that all is okay. This whole process is extremley exhausting I must say. Crikey! I have to sit back an laugh for I just cannot afford to lose my sense of humour about this! So feel free to laugh away!BCOF:Day 618 July 29th prompt: Describe the most ambitious DIY project you have ever taken on! I don't really have anything for this prompt. Although out of Kevin and myself I am the handy womean, we have always rented and thus although we wanted to do this and that we never could because it wasn't our home. One place we lived in for three years, the property manager even took photos of all the gardens noting every plant that was in that garden and it had to stay that way. So it means it has always limited us. I must admit the first thought I had when I read this prompt was 'having and bringing up kids'. In retrospect I would have contracted them out between the ages os 12 and 20! I jest of course...sort of!And that is how I roll Blessings Andi |
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