Porthole

Triggering prompt ... if I could only remember

PROMPT March 22nd

Write about your earliest memory.
Try to describe it in as much detail as possible.

Maybe if I could remember I'd be triggered. The real answer? Nothing. My first head injury apparently was around age 3. In some ways I have no childhood. Everything I remember is an echo of a memory.

And now as my memory fades it's even worse. I know we had a green '53 Oldsmobile until I was 4 or 5. I think I remember seeing a cow once.

My kindergarten teacher wanted to keep me back; but, that's my mother's memory not mine. I used to know her name. Can't remember my second or third grade teacher's name either at the moment and I know I used to know! 1st grade was Miss Mancuso; I got all C's. I have a school photo somewhere. When I look at that I mostly remember names. I'm the short kid at the front with the big smile and buck teeth.

I know I had a blue-green security blanket. Our quilt used when we were sick, and my sister and I were always sick, was red and patchwork strips.

I know I've mentioned before how I remember hearing "Ombra mai fu" and "Greensleeves" about age 3. But that didn't come to mind when I read the prompt!

My mind has slipped this last year. I wonder how noticeable it is to others. It's why I really resent not being able to travel this past year. If this is onset dementia then I won't have much time left to travel.